Byler

Chapter 2 castle byers

At castle Byers

Will was sitting in his small wood castle, holding a picture of the party in his hands.
He cried and mumbled the word "stupid" or "so stupid" a few times.
But looking at it didn't change anything, it wouldn't bring back the old times and he knew that.
Why did it had to be him who fell into the upside down, if only he never went home that night, if only he would held onto everyone when he came back, if only he would have said something sooner, if only Mike would still look out for him if only he wouldn't be a b-
...
,,if I were a girl... would that have changed anything?...?"
What a stupid question.
Of course it's stupid, he didn't wanted to be a girl!
He was happy to be a guy most of the time, if only ... if only he wouldn't like his best friend more then he should...
,,it's not his fault he said... it is, he's stupid"
That Mike didn't know about his feelings was often so painful, but it would be even worse IF he knew the truth.
Will couldn't sit still any longer and ripped the picture into half's.
He grabbed the baseball bat that was leaning on the side and crawled outside his castle.
,,SO STUPID!"
Swosh*
With a fast move the Baseball bat hit the wood of castle Byers and damaged an important fundamental point.
With every hit the castle started collapsing bit by bit.
Out of breath he fell to his knees and still cried.
That's it, the last bridge connecting him to the past he wanted to return to soo bad, destroyed by his own hands.
Everything that was covered by the wood from the rain was now drenched and unusable.
The pictures and drawings started to slowly fall apart, the blankets drenched, as well as some games..
Now it's all over.
He wasn't needed anymore, his best friend moved on without him.
Everything was pointless... so stupid...
Maybe he shouldn't have-
His thoughts were interrupted by a far scream.
,,will "
It came closer.
,,WILL!!"
Mike?! He followed him all the way to the forest in this heavy rain?!
Why would he go that far? He made it clear that he didn't care anymore."
Mike stopped a few steps behind Will, dropped his bike to the side and came a step closer before finally stopping.
,,... the castle... Will...."
Will didn't turn around.
A thunder sound in the distant*
,,I'm so sorry ..."
Mike's voice was shacking, as if he was softly crying...
The brunette couldn't see it tho since he still only starred at the ground of his destroyed castle.
,,I was being a total asshole i know! I ignored you all summer without realizing it but that doesn't make it okay, I said things that hurt you, things I shouldn't have said I know. I only cared about spending time with El and forgot that my best friend needs me, I know that! And I also know I don't even deserve your forgiveness, but I need it! When I was with El I don't need to think, I can hide from my problems and pretend everything is fine, like nothing ever happened, but that was dumb of me! It made me forget how it felt when I thought I lost you... the emptiness in me, the pain, the wound it left! But when u just confronted me I realized what I did wrong and you made me start to think again! I remembered what horrible feeling it was, what feeling it is to lose you and I CANT TAKE IT! Will I need you! I always will and I can't be without you! So that's why I'm bagging you to forgive me one more time..."
Now Will turned his head to Mike and he cried harder again. He stood up and almost fell because the tears covered his vision.
Mike rushed closer to hold his friend softly to make sure he wouldn't fall.
,,you're a douche Mike- you're really so mean!"
Will got closer.
,,I know."
Now Will could hear that his friend was really crying, before he slowly wanted to hug him.
When Mike realized he was being pulled into a hug, he immediately wrapped his arms around the smaller one and squeezed him tightly.
,,I'm so sorry Will!"
He sobbed into his friends neck.
,,... but you are right.."
Said Will quietly.
,,what?"
Mike mumbled into Will's neck, while the smaller one swallowed hard.
,,I don't like girls..."
Mike stiffed for a moment before he relaxed his body again and slowly pulled away from the hug to look into his best friends face.
But Will on the other hand avoided eye contact and instead looked to his feet.
,,you remember our talk on Halloween? You said: Will, if we both are going crazy, let's go crazy together.... That's what you said,... but In the end I'm the only one who has gone crazy..."
Mike now looked concerned at Will, trying to look into his friends eyes.
,,you were right... I can't grow up. It's not your fault... it isn't..."
The last words sounded more like he tried to convince himself to believe it.
Yea he couldn't grow up because it would mean he had to face feelings he just wanted to burry and hide forever.
Mike took a step back, still holding Wills arms slightly.
,,hey, you don't have to grow up,... to tell you the truth I don't want to grow up either... I Miss playing Nintendo and DnD in my base, I just felt like I shouldn't spend all my time with it, but I actually really want to..."
,,Mike?"
,,yea?"
Said Mike in his soft voice.
,,I forgive you if u can promise me something.."
,,YEA EVERYTHING, ANYTHING!"
,,let's pretend like this talk never happened, we go home and sleep and when we wake up tomorrow we won't mention this night and everything will be fine...."
Mike was speechless...
,,promise me, please!"
Now Will finally looked into his best friends eyes.
He looked hopeful and desperate, waiting for the black haired boy to answer.
,,... okay"
Came it quietly from Mike.
The two hugged once again tightly as if it would be the last time they see each other.
Then, as they parted ways Mike felt conflicted...
Forget everything that happened?
But why?
His best friend finally opened up to him, for a moment it felt like they had become closer and now he should forget about it, pretend like it never happened?!
He really didn't wanted to forget about it...
Even as he was finally laying in bed, he couldn't stop thinking about Will.
"I don't like girls" he said...
So he likes boys, how did he find out?
Does he have someone he likes?
If that person likes him back, would he still have time for him?
If Will had a ...boyfriend,.... Would he ignore Mike like he did when he was with El?
Will would never, but what if he does?
Does he like someone Mike knew?
Maybe someone in school, or even from the party?
1000 questions appeared in Mikes head and he turned a couple times in his bed.
.... He wouldn't like me, ... right?
It would be better if he did... why? Why was he thinking that?
But if he liked him many things would make sense! But what would that mean for them?
Did he really don't mind it to be liked by Will?
Yea he wouldn't mind, it wouldn't bother him at all, but why did he feel relieved when Will would like HIM?
If they held hands, if they touched, if they.... Kissed...
The thought of it, Mike didn't hate it or found it uncomfortable, no it was more like the opposite.
He became curious, how would it be, how would it feel?
Mikes thoughts slowly disappeared and he fell asleep.

Will on the other hand had no idea what Mike was thinking.
He was scared, anxious and wished tomorrow would never come.
Hoping with all his mind that Mike would keep his promise and pretend like nothing ever happened.
If he knew the truth, the full truth... he would come distant himself from Will and they really would lose each other....

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Omg I'm scared this chapter got a bit cringy lol
It's kinda short again tho sorry about that, but if I started with the next scene the chapter would have been too long...
Anyway~ enjoy bestie