His Mistress (Book 1)

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TAYLOR'S POV

I can't believe she just did that. I should take some goddamn responsibility? Like she was unconscious when I did it. I asked, I asked her if she doesn't want to and she gave me the go ahead and now this? Why do I keep letting myself get hurt like this? Why can't I just let her go?

I didn't know when it happened. It's true that I had a crush on her when I first saw her but, it was just a stupid crush or so I thought.

If I stay far enough, it would be fine. But the more I saw her, the more it pains me to see her suffer in the hands of an ungrateful and inconsiderate daughter, a lying and cheating husband and an unworthy in-laws.

To make matters worse, even her parents weren't on her side. She's carrying this huge burden and I just want to help so what is she so afraid of?

I didn't want to get her in trouble or feel guilty and so I kept my distance when I was still a minor but what's her obsession with age? Especially when we're both adults now?

I stood there watching her walk out of my life. She doesn't want me and I've just been hurting myself over and over again.

I can't take this, I can't take it anymore. I won't see her again, no! never. I don't think my heart can take anymore of this.

I wiped my tears trying to be strong but that just made me break down in tears again. Can't she just love me back? Am I so unlovable?

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I stayed away from the Khans after what happened between Esta and I. Maya called many times but I kept my distance, continuously coming up with new excuses as to why I can't visit.

When she became fed up with the excuses, she came over to the house. I didn't want her in the house. I was still angry at her mom but I shouldn't be taking it out on Maya, that's just childish.

We were talking, playing the piano and catching up on the trends that we didn't notice time passing. Soon, it was already late and Maya wants to return home.

"Why not just sleep here, just for tonight?" I insisted for the nth time but she refused.

"Again, my parents won't let me. It's the one law I can't break. I need to go back home. I told you it was getting late but you asked us to continue. So take responsibility for your actions" she said laughing.

She telling me to take responsibility, just reminded me of what Esta said to me that day and I didn't want to go anywhere close to her even more now. Maya can't drive so she kept asking me to take her home.

"Pleaseeee.... come on. I can't take a taxi, it's almost 10 and I'm almost behind curfew." She begged desperately. She was so serious like her life depended on getting home. So I concurred and drove her home.

"I just have to drop her at the gate and return right? That shouldn't be too hard. Esta wouldn't see us from the gate. She might not even be at home. And If Maya by any chance ask me to sleep over, I wouldn't even think twice about it before zooming away from there." I convinced myself before getting up from the sofa, to get my car keys.