Let's get this one going. Stacia is an ex fiance that is simple enough right and most would think why would I add an ex to this book if it's about dedication of people who are positive. Before she would stalk me for several years before I decided to date her which wasn't bad at first, she was my first girlfriend before getting with Summers in 2015. Stacia wasn't who I expected and our age difference did have a factor. Also, I didn't like the same stuff as she did, which was Twilight and Harry Potter mostly.
Stacia being the first EVER female I dated in person changed a lot of my emotions and especially making love to her even though it was one sided. Yes, I explored with females before her but I wasn't as committed as I was with her which made a big difference. Despite our age differences and our different likes, she was more of a friend than anything. Yes, I liked her but I couldn't be in love with her because she was someone that tried to change me when I wasn't ready and that was to be full lesbian but she wasn't either.
Yes, that was a major factor right there. She wanted me to be full lesbian which in 2011-2012 I wasn't fully ready to accept that. I mean, I knew I was because of my jealousy issues over men being with women that I liked and to this day, I still and won't accept it. Stacia hurt me badly after my second surgery when she accused me of sleeping with my best friend Romeo, and to find out she cheated on me with a Transgender (no, I am not ashamed of Transgenders, I have friends that are.) The fact that she actually admitted to sleeping with someone else and moving in with them also burnt me badly, she regretted it but in my mind it fought a hard battle because she knew I HAD TO HAVE HEART SURGERY. The whole time in the Children's ICU I would ask my guy friend at the time and my younger brother if they heard from her and no one did.
The only thing I wish I could have changed about that relationship is accepting that I was lesbian even though she knew and so did everyone else besides my mom who wasn't fully accepting at the time either. Stacia, if you ever see this just know that you may have been right about my sexuality but you can't force people to say who they are when they aren't ready. With that being said I do miss you but I don't miss your toxic ways. I wish you a wonderful life and the best foot forward.
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I Am Lesbian
Non-FictionIt has taken nearly twenty years to accept myself as of who I am and now I am ready to tell this story in my very own memoir of who I am. This is my story and how I have learned to accept who I am as a person. Disclaimer: Certain names in Chapters...
