Flau'jae Johnson
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"Another burp cloth" I emphasized out of frustration to Jaeuh as she held a onesie up, "You not listening"
"I didn't know"
"I said it twice before you left out"
"You said a onesie, ma" I squinted my eyes at her for a second
"If you ain't know, how you know I said a onesie?" she was just standing there before shrugging, "Cause you not listening"
"Cause I just didn't know"
"Go get a burp cloth" I said before Angel popped her head up with a mug on her face
"I can't even get no fucking sleep" she spat out in rage, "Pissing me off, I told y'all I'm tired"
I just watched as she slowly got up out the bed as Jaeuh left out the room.
"Where you going?" I asked just for her to ignore me, "Angel where you going?"
She left out the room before Jaeuh came back with the burp cloth. Jaeuh left back out before I started burping Jouri.
She's such a good baby, but she cry so much.
I did my research on it because for some reason I found it weird. Normal responses popped up like hunger, tiredness — normal responses.
None of my other kids cried this much in their newborn stage. Jouri is different in so many ways.
I put her to sleep before laying her down. I left out the room with the monitor to find Angel. Her emotions and attitude been crazy since leaving the hospital.
I'm patient because I understand.
It's postpartum and she excessively tired too. She running off of four hours of sleep right now.
I found her in one of the guest rooms before I cracked the door after coming in.
"I don't have no milk, she just ate. Leave me alone and get out" she spat out while continuing to face the wall
"I was just coming to check on you"
"No"
"You alright?" I asked while making my way over to the side of the bed she was on, "What you want me to do mamas?"
I sat down and looked at her.
"Get out so I can go to sleep. I came in here for a reason. Y'all done woke me up twice, and you got the nerve to come in here?"
"I just wanted to check on you, mamas. Can you allow me to do that?" I asked before she sighed and closed her eyes, "Can you?"
"Yes"
"I understand you tired, and I'm sorry for waking you up. I'm gone let you get your sleep and space. We won't bother you until Jouri need to eat"
"Great" she pulled the cover over her head
"I love you" I moved the cover before kissing her and putting it back how she had it
I got up and left out the room before closing the door behind me.
The house is quiet right now cause everybody sleep except me and Jaeuh. The twins had to go down for a nap, they was jumping off every wall.
Loud and shit.
I went back in the room with Jouri before getting in the bed. I'm not gonna lie, I'm tired too but I ain't going to sleep.
Angel need the sleep more, so I'm gone let her sleep. My poor baby is going through it.
