My dear, sweet Kyra,
So I'm filled with anxiety because I reread our texts I sent this morning cuz at the time I wasn't processing it properly because of the after effects, and I reread them to see if I missed anything. When I asked if you'd told my mum anything you said "no just what you told me" and i replied "okay good" and I don't remember doing that? And it's not good that's basically all she needs to know to spread information and if I don't reply in a certain amount of time she's gonna start calling police or calling Nini and Nini is gonna be calling my dad and everythings gonna spread like a frigging wildfire and that's not what I want at all. I don't want that to happen man I'm so anxious I just want everyone to forget anything happened at all. What I told you was what I didn't want her or aNyOnE but you to know dang it I just I'm so anxious and Oktavia keeps calling and I feel like I'm gonna blow up because she won't freaking leave me alone and I need my mum to wake up so I can tell her don't you dare say a word to anyone or call anyone and just forget everything. Everything is so much right now and I just I can't. Your mum texted me, okay, fine, your mum doesn't have any of the contacts and probably won't say anything anyway. But my mum possibly has been talking to Nini so she can keep an eye on me somehow and I don't want my dad dealing with that and I don't want Kelly or Alison or anyone to know but now apparently my mum knows but I wish I'd realized that message had been sent earlier cuz then I could've asked what exactly you told her mmmmm. I'm so anxious I need her to hurry up. And Oktavia wants to hang out later and I don't want to now that she keeps friggin calling and I have all this going on why can't something just be a secret man why does my mum have to be involved no no no I didn't want that for goodness friggin mmmmmm I'm so anxious.
Okay I can relax a bit with my mum she doesn't know anything okay. oKaY. But still Oktavia is just ALKDSKSKSOSK I CAN'T she's still texting and calling going where are you hello hi are you there. Man. And my mum just asked about my health so now I'm worried again.
Okay a lot of begging and she's not gonna tell anyone as long as I promise her that I tell her everything to do with my health from now on. I'm okay with that. I'm shaking though that was a moment of a lot of panic. Man. And hopefully nothing will ever get back to anyone and I can just relax. I'm probably gonna be on edge for a little while but after a week goes by I'll start to relax a bit more. I need to be on alert to make sure nothing goes around or is said. Okay. Oktavia wants to go out so I'm just gonna go out and hopefully that'll satisfy her enough. I love you so so much baby.
Yours forever,
Your moving rock <3
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