Letters to My Love

02/10/24

My amazing Kyra,

Day 2 of October and of manifesting you back. And I feel excited about it. We're gonna sort our lives out and work on ourselves and it'll take a little while because healing can't be rushed and then when we're better you'll come back and we'll build up what we lost and our relationship will be stronger than before, we'll communicate better and we won't break up when it gets hard but we'll go through it as a team. And I'll support you with achieving what you want to, whether it's still wanting to be a doctor or something else. I'll support you in all aspects of your life. Through the highs and the lows. And we'll be financially stable and we'll have Puppy and Puppycat or maybe another dog and another cat but the dog will be light brown like in your vision and we'll be chasing each other in the kitchen throwing flour at each other and laughing again. I'll learn to cook so that when you've had a long day at work you can come back and just rest and we'll sit and watch stuff together and cuddle. That cross stitch I was doing and you saw finished in a vision will be hanging up somewhere and we'll have our Croc and Toadie merch selling to earn a little more on the side. We'll go travelling and you'll take me to China and show me everything you remember and I'll take you to Thailand and we'll stay in Bangkok and Koh Chang where I had been because there are places I wanna show you in the city and on the island. There's this restaurant near the Silom Serene Hotel that does the best lemonade and it's all fresh and the raspberry lemon one was my favourite, and then on Koh Chang the restaurant on the beach does the best passionfruit smoothie made from real fruit and crushed ice and nothing else. The watermelon one in Bangkok is really really good too so you can try that as well. I'll take you to the bar at the top of the Banyan Tree on a date and treat you to whatever you want and we'll watch the sunset over the entire city and watch all the city lights turn on and the stars come out.

I'm gonna draw us doing these things together too so I can clearly see it all. I started doing it when I lived with my mum - I was doing a manga of us living together and the first story actually you set the kitchen on fire so we should be prepared for that because when I came back it was already pretty fiery and smoke was pouring out the window so imma watch you in that kitchen missy. I'm not manifesting that anyway. As a 13 year old I had these fears of living on my own and the things I was scared of most were being robbed, someone breaking in and they have a gun, and the house being set on fire or flooding because I didn't want all of my art to be destroyed. Now I have more reason to not have a burnt house because of the stuff you've given me as well so don't you go setting the kitchen on fire.

But you will come back because you are the one and we'll grow old together and have crazy memories and we'll have pictures up everywhere and I'll take you to meet Kelly and all my family like my aunt and my uncle and my cousins and I guess my nan but she can be full on so just prepare for that. My dad might be angry at you at first because of you cheating but when he sees that you aren't just gonna hurt me and leave he'll accept you into his family and he'll treat you like his own - but it might take some time before he trusts you again. I'll go back to Seychelles before all of this obviously because you'll still be there working and we'll stay together again and I'll give Stephen his PS5 controller finally and everyone will be happier although it may be rocky because that's just life but at least everyone wouldn't be arguing or stuff like that because everything is gonna work out. I'll meet the people who want to see me and you'll show me La Digue this time and we'll have a date on the beach.

We will be back together because our love is real, it's just going through a rough patch. And I read that people who are meant to be usually have to go through harder things to be together. And I also read that the universe will keep two people apart until the time is right, so I believe we met at the right time but also the wrong time. The right time to show us what is to come and to teach us the lessons we need to apply to ourselves, to show us what we need to work on, and then be separated to work on it ourselves, and then come back together when we've gotten better so we can be together and not have our mental health clashing. Also, ever since you broke up with me, even while things were rough, before my driving test, I kept seeing 11:11 every time I looked at the time. When my aunt came to see me and I took her to Edie's she said she'd been seeing 11:11 and thought she should tell me and was wondering if I'd been seeing it too. Since then I keep seeing it, like the other day and a couple of weeks before that. It crops up everywhere and I never really realized how many times I've seen it until now. But the angel number 11:11 means everything will come when the time is right. You will come back. Everything is showing me this. And I'm manifesting it and I know you can feel me.

Well anyway I have to go study because that's the one thing I'm failing at but if I keep saying I'm failing that's what I'll attract so I'm gonna say I'm gonna do well today and I'll get a lot done. And also I told Dhruv that if I'm not studying he has to force me because I keep getting sidetracked so I better start before he wakes up. So ya xD

I hope you're sleeping okay baby girl and I hope you have a good day today. Everything will be okay in the end, just hold on. I'm so proud of you. I can't wait to be able to give you love and make you laugh and cuddle you again. I love you more than you could ever imagine Kyra Howatson, never forget. I made horrible mistakes but I will make it right. Kisses and cuddles <3

Yours forever,

Your moving rock <3