Cursed In Eternity

Rumors

The years started coming and going and before I knew Oystien and my fifth anniversary were right around the corner. With the kids in school and us working at Helvete we have slowed down and focused more on the kid's well-beings than our own. Not as many people have been coming into Helvete so Euronymous picked up a second job delivering packages and mail, he hates it but it's all he could find. "I hate leaving you here at the shop alone, " he had his hand sat on mine as he was about to have to go. "Hey it's okay, I'm not alone I've got Faust, " I smiled over at Faust who probably felt forgotten about. He smiled a little then continued sorting records, whenever Oystien had to go Faust and typically someone else is here with me.

"I'll see you when I come home, love you, " he smiled giving me a kiss and throwing his leather jacket on before walking off to the car. "I knew something was going on between you two, " Faust smirked at me. To keep things safe Euro didn't want to invite any of his fellow black metalers outside of Mayhem to the wedding to prevent unnecessary drama do Faust never knew because we never acted romantic outside closed doors except for private dates. "Yeah, he's my husband, and I love him to death, " I sighed daydreaming a little about my sweetheart Oystien Arseth. As it became closing time Faust closed up and we bid each other goodbye going back home in seperate directions. On my way home I stopped off and picked up some fod, it's going to be a cold night so we're going to need some warm food, which always makes both the kids and Euronymous happy.

"Euronymous, " I whispered his name to myself as I picked up some noodles. "I wouldn't have so much faith in him if I were you, " I turned to see the other man who works with me and Faust, Krvil (made up character). "What, " I looked at him angered that he was following me. "Your little husband is a hoe, " he spat. "No he's not, shut up, " I yelled. "Why do you think he leaves you alone with us, " he sneered. "Because he trusts that we can handle the shop, " I said firmly. "No, the truth is your husband never settled down, he still craves sex just as much as he did five years ago but he can't get it from you. So he goes door to door looking for a man willing to fuck him up and shove a dick up his ass, he doesn't want you, and he definitely doesn't love you, " he spoke darkly. "Euronymous would never do that, " I pushed him out of the way and headed for the check out. "What do you think he means by delivering packages after all, " he asked.

"Shut up, " I hollered at him. "Trust me, he gets plenty of head while your away and if he can't well, let me just say he has plenty of toys at his use, " he said. "I don't trust you, leave me alone Krvil, " I walked off and hopped in the car leaving him behind. Once I got home I sat down with the kids and helped them with their homework then started cooking some chicken and dumplings for dinner. I know that what Krvil was saying was a lie but I couldn't help but dwell on his words. What if Euro isn't getting the love that he needs because things have been more stressful since the kids were born and don't feel loved so he's running around? No don't think about that, he would never do that he loves you. "Hey babe, I'm home, " I felt arms around me followed by Oystien's warm sweet breath on my neck making me grow warm.

"Dinner's ready, " I hollered for Jack and Orchid. As I could feel Oystien getting ready to kiss my neck I moved away swiftly setting the pot on the table and giving everyone some. The kids talked about school but I couldn't help but notice Oystien looking at me sadly, I typically mouth feed him after he comes home from work since he exhausted and it's kind of cute in a way, but after what I heard the most I feel like doing is keeping him at a distance. "Okay kids get washed up, it's time for bed, " I gathered everyone's plates up. "Aww, " they whined.

I sat down on the couch after they went up to bed to be greeted by Oystien who snuggled into me, when I noticed him trying to put his hands around me I pushed him away emotionlesy. "What the fuck, " he looked at me pathetically. "What the hell have I done, " he looked at me with eyes pleading for an answer. "I'm not good enough for you, and you finally realised it but weren't willing to tell me, " I spoke gravely. "What the hell are you talking about I lov-, " I cut him mid sentence. "Don't even say that, " I mumbled. His eyes grew wide with anger as he stood up, "fuck it if you're not going to listen, I'm taking a fucking shower, GOOD NIGHT, " he stormed off. After he left I went up to our room and crouched down on his side of the bed and looked through his drawers, if Krvil really is right, Oystien should have some self pleasure and sex toys in his drawers, or at least one of them. As I dug through all of his drawers not a single toy was to be found or anything else he could possibly use in a similar way, just clothes and notebooks and such.

In that moment I collapsed to the floor, I just accused my husband of doing something horrible knowing he probably wouldn't do it, or at least hoped he wouldn't have and he didn't. Tears began to flow from my eyes and onto the floor, after what I've done today I deserve pain. I glanced to the side of the room and split my wrists open with a box cutter. So this is how Pelle felt? The tears from my cheeks got in the wounds and made them sting but it wasn't enough. I cut them until I saw bone then slashed my throat and cut my legs falling completely to the floor as I lost all power and bled out. The carpet grew a deep shade of red very quickly and breathing grew harder. I could feel my life slipping away, Oystien I'm sorry, I never deserved you and now I'll give you the gift you deserve of not having to deal with me any longer, I'm sorry for putting you through all of this, I'm sorry for not being able to love you like you need, I'm sorry that I let you waste your time on me, but most importantly I'm sorry that you set your eyes on me and I was to greedy to let you go and let you be with your soulmate, someone that you deserve. I'm so sorry Oystien, I'm sorry....