The Day I left You

Switching Things Up

"I don't know...I wish I could help more." Wade says over voice chat.

"It's okay. You don't need to help...I just needed to vent, you know?"

"Yeah...Hey listen...I've got some weeks off coming up next month...umm...I was thinking about coming to Australia for a visit. What do you think?"

I pause and mute my microphone.

"NO. DON'T COME HERE, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD. I DON'T WANT TO DATE YOU." I yell aloud and throw my head down on the key board really quick. I pop back up and un-mute my microphone.

"Sorry, I had a coughing fit...Um...." I had to just tell him and rip the band-aid off. "...Wade...How long have we been good friends?"

"Uhhh, like 6 years." He says.

"Right. 6 years is a long time and...I would never not want to be friends with you...Can I ask you another question and you answer me 100% honestly?"

"I'm confused, but sure." He sounds relatively calm right now, but my heart started to race in that moment. I'm fearful of his reaction...

"Do you have feelings for me that aren't platonic?"

"I-Uhhh...I don't-" His stuttering basically tells me everything I need to know to confirm my suspicions.

"Just say yes or no and give me a straight honest answer."

"...........Yes........Hey uh, I gotta go. Can we talk later?" He sounds sad now...

"Oh uh...Sure..." I couldn't shake the feeling that he was mad I asked him.

"Okay. See you."

The line disconnects and I'm left in chat party by myself. How was I feeling this shitty over asking a straight forward question? I just feel like he's super upset with me now...I pick up my phone and take my headphones off, dialing Hyunjin's number. It wasn't 3pm yet so I figured he wasn't terribly busy.

"Hello. I was just thinking about you. How was your rest? Have you eaten?" He sounds genuinely concerned and I smile just hearing his voice.

"Hey, you. I slept good, but I haven't had breakfast or lunch yet. What about you?"

"Nope. That won't do. It's only 11:30, let's go get lunch. My treat."

I couldn't have him pay for another meal! I wanted to take him out instead.

"Hyunjin wait, I want to treat you this time."

"Nope. I do this because I want to. I'm coming to get you, hope you like walking! Chan is using the car right now." He says with a cute little chuckle.

"Yeah, that's fine. How long do I have?"

"Hmmmm...like 10 minutes...I think. If this light will change any time soon!!!" He yells out passed the phone speaker. I laugh at his cute frustration and say,

"It's okay. I can wait a few extra minutes if you need."

"Seriously. This light is just taking forever! But okay. I'll be there soon."

"Okay, see you soon."

I hang up and set my phone down on the desk, staring at the computer screen. I see Wade had gotten offline during my call with Hyunjin and I feel super guilty. But then again...Why should I feel guilty for wanting to know the truth?

I check my Facebook and scroll for a moment and notice a small notification in my messages. I click on my message requests and see a faceless profile with the name John Doe and a message that reads,