MC Devil Dogs #4 Which One Should I Love?

Going to the clinic

Penny

     We arrived at the clinic and I am in the back.  Cherise tried to help me with my nerves on the way over here.  She has no idea the amount of times I was treated by a doctor and then I had to do sexual favors for him in return.  Stephan made sure that if he could get them to accept sex of any kind with me as payment he would do it.  I am really hoping this will be different.  Cherise has promised me that I am safe but I thought I was safe before too.  I am now in the room trying not to bite my nails.  I am nervous and scared.  I hear a knock on the door and the nurse walks in.  She sits down and begins to ask me questions about my history.  I know that I need to be honest but I hate telling it too. She asked me about my sexual history and I tell her how I was raped for my first time  well everytime since then.  I explain how I have been treated for gonorrhea six months ago.  She ask if I had given birth before and I answer honestly with a no.  I don't want to tell her how I was pregnant twice once at 15 and again at 17.  Stephan had the oh so loveable nice doctor perform the abortions.  He was suppose to be giving me a shot every three months to prevent the pregnancies but he was always to busy trying to get a blow job or have sex to do it.  The nurse asked me to undress and put on the gown for the doctor to examine me.  I know Cherise will see all my bruises because I have not healed up very well this time.  Stephan had beat me last week then again the other day.

     Cherise is helping me undress because my ribs hurt so damn much that it's hard to get my shirt off.  I was able to get it on this morning but it took me awhile.  I hear her intake of breath as she sees the bruising.  I have no idea what my back looks like but it can't be pretty.  I can see the bruise on my rib cage and I don't think my ribs are broken just bruised.  The doctor and nurse come back in the room to do my exam.  I am so thankful it's a female doctor.  She does some swabs for STD's checks and then checks my ribs.  Pushing on my ribs hurts something awful but I am glad to hear she thinks they are just bruised too.  She tells us she will give me something mild for the pain and I should know the results in a few days from all the test.  She steps out and Cherise helps me dress again.  I am so glad this is over.  Cherise goes to the desk to finish everything up and I just lean against the wall because I am totally exhausted now.  That took everything out of me.  As we head out to the van I hear an elderly woman call out Cherise's name but by the looks on Cherise's face she wants nothing to do with her.  Cherise grabs Razor hand and mine while dragging us to the van.  She has death grip on my hand.  I wonder what the hell is going on with that woman? 

     We get in the van and Cherise is breathing hard.  I hear Razor asking her to explain to him about what is going on but she says nothing.  We head to the pharmacy to get my medications.  I want to ask Cherise about that lady but I can tell she doesn't want to talk about it.  It didn't take long for them to fill my medication so we are almost back to the clubhouse.  Cherise had explained to me that they are a biker club and how she is a sweet butt.  I know Prez said I can stay and do whatever I feel comfortable with but I don't think I want to do that.  If he will just let me stay long enough to heal up and get my mind straight then maybe I can find somewhere to go and start a new life.  Razor stops the van and helps us out.  We head inside and I am so ready to go lay down for awhile.  Cherise basically ran up the stairs headed to the room.  As we get to the room she sits on the bed and begins to cry.  I don't know what to do for her so I just try and give her a hug.  I squeeze her hand trying to make sure she knows I am here for her like she was for me. 

     I am sitting beside Cherise as she tells me that the lady was her mother.  The same mother who allowed my father to sell me ten years ago.  She starts crying again and I can't help the tears that slip down my face.  What is wrong with people?  You are suppose to be able to trust you parents and your brother.  Cherise's phone starts ringing so I step in the bathroom while she answers it to change into more comfortable clothes.  I come out as Cherise goes in the bathroom to wash her face because Prez wants to meet her.  I tell her I am just going to lay down for a bit.  I see her leave the room and I lay down.  I haven't been laying down long when I heard screaming downstairs.  I can not make up my mind about going to check on it or continue laying here.  I hear Cherise's voice so I decide to go have a look.  I am standing at the stop of the stairs as Cherise is beating the hell out of Jackie.  The boys are all trying to stop it.  Damn Cherise can fight.  I hear the Prez yell "What the fuck is going on in here?"  I turn my little tail around and head back to the room.  I will ask Cherise about it when she comes back up. 

     Cherise was gone for about twenty minutes when she came back in the room with sandwiches, chips and sodas.  I sit up on the bed and take mine from her.  As we are sitting there eating I ask "Cherise, what happened downstairs with that girl Jackie?  You don't have to answer if you don't want to."  Cherise takes a sip of her soda and begins to tell me how Jackie ran off at the mouth about her not getting enough love from mommy and daddy.  She explained that today was stressful seeing her mother and it just set her off.  I nod my head in understanding.  The rest of the afternoon we stayed in the room and talked.  It was nice having someone that's a female to talk to.  Later that night we went down to eat dinner with the rest of them.  I noticed it was mostly men and that made me a little nervous.  Cherise introduced me to some of them but I just gave a small smile and not much else.  I didn't want any of them thinking I was interested.  I mean I saw that big dude and he was one fine specimen of a man but I don't trust men.  I know Cherise says I can trust the Prez and some of the others but it's hard to.  We get back up stairs and I grab a quick shower again.  It's been nice being able to shower more often.  If Stephan didn't have men for me to entertain he didn't let me shower most of the time.  It makes me feel so clean after the shower and to know I will not be having sex with some creepy men.  I really only felt safe having sex that one time with those brothers.  They were nice to me unlike so many others. 
I come out of the bathroom and lay down.  I am so tired tonight.  The stress of the morning really got to me.  I fell asleep pretty quick. 

     Cherise is having another nightmare and it seems worse than last night.  I am trying to help her but she is so lost in her nightmare that I am not getting through to her.  Right now she is curled up into a ball in the corner.  I have tried all I know to do.  I decide I need to go get Razor.  He is the only one I know enough to trust being around me.  I knock on his door but there is no answer.  I decide to go inside his room and shake him awake.  I shake him a couple of times before I get him awake.  He jerks awake then asked me "What the hell is going on Penny?"  Shit he seems mad I woke him up.  I am little scared right now so I tell him about Cherise.  We make it back to the room and he tries to talk to her but he doesn't know what to do either.  He tells me to go get his phone that he will get some guy named Brick.  I run to his room and grab it.  I get back to the room and he sends a text.  I see the big ass dude come running in with boxers only on and he gets in the floor with Cherise.  He pulls Cherise onto his lap then rocks her back and forth while speaking really softly to her.  He manages to get through to her.  She looks up at him talking about they are back and she starts crying.  He picks her up and lays down with her on the bed.  He tells Razor to show me to his room to sleep tonight because he is staying with Cherise.  Razor looks back at me with a questioning look.  I nod my head letting him know I am good with it.  I hate to see her so upset.  I follow Razor out and he takes me to Brick's room.  I get inside and lock the door.  I lay down on his bed and it smells heavenly.  I can smell the cologne he wears a long with his natural smell.  I hug up to his pillow and close my eyes.  I thought I would struggle being in his bed, his room but I felt safe actually. 

     I woke up the next morning and decide to just sit on the bed until someone comes to get me.  I unlocked the door earlier just incase.  I am sitting here thinking about everything.  I can't help but to hope that they killed Stephan.  I hate him with everything in me.  I hear someone come in and look up to see Cherise with Brick.  She introduces Brick to me.  I give him a small smile.  He tells me "If you ever need anything or Cherise has a bad night just find me sweetie."  I give him a nod in acknowledgment.  I follow Cherise out of his room.  I see her go back in to give Brick a hug.  I wish I could be comfortable with a man enough to give him a hug.  I haven't had a hug in a very long time.  I am back in Cherise's room where she loans me some more clothes.  We both change and then head downstairs to eat.  As I get to the dining room I see several of the men are up.  I see Prez sitting at the end of the table.  Cherise tells me she needs to speak to him real quick. I stand there and wait.