MC Devil Dogs #4 Which One Should I Love?

Making their desires known

Penny

     I did not taste my food at all.  I could tell something is coming so I am trying to make this sandwich last a lifetime.  I watch as the guys keep looking at each other then me.  I mean it's obvious that they have decided something but what I do not know.  I have never had a man to ask permission for anything it was always taken from me.  These two though have always made me feel like I truly matter.  They never act bothered by the fact I am pregnant with no idea who the father is.  They seem just as excited about the baby same as I am.  I see they have both finished and they went to the kitchen to wash their dishes.  I finally decided it was time to also be finished no matter what was coming my way.  I take my plate into the kitchen and Tank takes it from me to wash.  Brick then starts putting up all the other stuff from us making a sandwich.  They both keep giving me a look that I do not understand.  Brick tells me to go rest in the living room while they finish the kitchen.  I needed a break anyway so I went ahead and planted my happy butt on the couch.  The more my stomach grows the more tired I am becoming it seems.  I sit on the couch and then turned on the TV to find something to occupy my mind.  Ten minutes later they both come into the living room and turn off the TV then tell me they wanted to talk to me.  Okay here we go, I knew something was coming.

Brick

     I sit down on the couch along side Penny.  I can tell she is nervous but I don't want her to be.  I pat her thigh and tell her "Penny please do not be nervous we just want to talk to you no pressure."  She looked up at me then Tank and gave us a small smile.  I started off the conversation.  I just went right to it "Penny we know you have a lot going on and right now you don't need or want the added pressure of the both of us.  However, we talked and feel that we should let you know.  I really like you and I mean this from the bottom of my heart.  You have opened up my heart that has been closed off for years.  I have never really wanted to pursue a woman before but you have made me want to be a better man.  I know you are worried and believe me when I say no matter what you decide both Tank and myself will still be here for you and little munchkin.  I will always be Uncle Brick to our little one if not daddy.  So here it goes Penny.  I have realized that I would really like to make you my girlfriend first.  I want you to get use to it then most likely my old lady.  I understand you need time and you are not ready to make such a decision but I would like to ask you if I can take you out on dates during this time so you can get to know me more.  Tank and I discussed this but you have all the decision making ability you would like.  We both want to date you so that we can see who is the better match.  Just so you know I will never let anyone come between Tank and myself so please don't worry about that.  If Tank is the lucky bastard then I will be happy for him.  At first I may take a step back so that you two can move forward but I will always be your friend and always be in your baby's life as long as you allow me too.

Tank

     Brick had just finished so now it's my turn.  I am not good with words at all but I am going to try and get my point across.  I begin with "Okay Penny my turn.  I am not as good with words but just so you know you have changed something in me.  I really love you smile and your laugh I could listen to it for days.  I want even mention your cooking skills.  My waist is making me realize that I need to maybe scale back some.  I would also let you know that I feel about the same as Brick.  You are one hell of a lady and I would like for you to date me to see if you might consider me as a life partner.  I too would love for you to be my ole lady.  I will care for you and little jelly bean no matter what.  If you choose Brick all I can say is you couldn't choose a better man.  I will always be your friend and Uncle to little tater tot.  I would like you to let us know how you feel about this situation and be honest.  There is nothing you can say that will send us packing.  Wait, let me rephrase that you can send us packing if you want.  We will never pressure you into anything but we would like to get to know you more during pregnancy and after the baby whenever you have made a decision we will be ready for it.  You can choose either one of us or neither.  Just know that we will always be your friend.  Your choice Penny and no matter what we are here for you and little jelly bean."  Whew I am done and now I feel like I have to throw up like what the fuck.  I look over to see that Penny is crying.  Oh shit, I must have said something wrong. 

Penny

     I am sitting here balling my eyes out.  I see they both are staring me down with concern.  I want to let them know I am okay just emotional because they make me feel special.  They make me feel like I am still worth something even though I have always been used by men.  I know now I have snot running out of my nose and my eyes are red.  Get it together Penny you dimwit.  I calm myself down then said "I know I am a blubbering mess but I promise I am okay. I just have never dreamed any man would really want me much less two wonderful men like you two.  I never thought any man would want to be in my child's life.  I know I am messed up in so many ways.  I have never been with a man and felt safe until now.  I have never been with a man and felt love.  I have never been with a man and felt special.  I have never made love with a man.  I have never had sex without pain so I don't know if I ever want to do it again.  I am so confused right now but I am also very touched by your words.  Please give me some time to think about things tonight.  I will not make a final decision though until the baby is here and few months old.  Okay?"  I see they both nod their head then they both got up and kissed me on my forehead.  I went ahead and went to the bathroom to take a bath.  I needed to relax for a bit then I will go to bed so that I can think about their words.  I never ever thought I would have two men offer to be my suitor.  I kind of want to giggle right now.  I say a little prayer to my momma asking her to give me a sign about what I should do.  I don't want to hurt either one of them at all.  They are both special in their own way and would make any woman an excellent man. 

     I had a good night sleep and I am ready to face this day.  I will talk to both men to let them know my decision.  Right now I plan on making them a good breakfast so that I can be prepared to lay it all out there.  I made some omelets, biscuits with sausage gravy and cut up some cantaloupe.  I made some coffee and had some orange juice out for them.  They both come in and started fixing their plate but then stopped.  I looked up at them both and asked "What's wrong you don't like it?"  They both laughed then at the same time told me to "No you need to fix your's first."  Like never over the last ten years has anyone offered to let me eat first.  I usually only got what was left and they even got less over the years.  I went about fixing my plate so they can go ahead and get their plates done.  I grabbed my plate and headed out to the table.  I take my seat and start eating.  They both sat down and then started eating too.  Few minutes into eating I decided to go ahead and tell them what I decided.  I cleared my throat and they both looked up at me.  I said "Okay you two let's talk.  I thought about this for a good part of the night.  I really like the both of you and I decided for now we will go on dates so we can get to know each other.  However, just so you both know I do not want to have sex of any kind right now.  If I feel comfortable then at the end of the date in the future then maybe a kiss.  I will not make a decision no matter what though until after the baby is here.  If I decide I won't to stop the dates then all I ask of you two is please do not stop being my friend.  You guys are the first friends I have had in a very long time.  I would hate to lose either of you.  I know you said you would always be there but if there is a small chance that this could ruin our friendship then I will not do this at all.  I do ask if you guys don't mind that maybe one or both of you could go with me for my check ups so I have someone to share this with and I am not alone?" They both smiled at me then one by one they gave me a hug and kiss on my forehead.  I love their hugs.  They are both like big old teddy bears.  I feel good about this.  So starting right now I guess I am being courted.  What do you think about that my little pumpkin?