MC Devil Dogs #4 Which One Should I Love?

Three is too many

Tank

     I have been seating here most of the morning trying to get the nerve up to talk to Penny but I have never confessed to a girl before.  Plus with her history I do not want to scare her away.  I checked with Prez earlier to make sure Brick is not overdoing it at the clubhouse.  Prez told me he is fine and will be home soon.  Penny comes into the living room and she sits down with her new book to read.  I sit there and think of all the ways to let this woman know I think I have some real feelings for her.  I clear my throat and she looks up at me.  I stand up and walk over toward her.  I take a seat and say "Penny can I talk to you?"  She smiles up at me and says "Sure."  I have never been nervous before talking to a girl but I am shitting bricks right now.  She must be able to tell because she reaches across me and holds my hand.  I tell her "Look Penny I am no good at this.  I need to tell you that I have begun to have feelings for you.  I know you are not ready for a serious relationship but I would like to let you know as soon as you are ready for someone I would like to date you."  Penny stares at me with huge eyes.  She doesn't say anything but she didn't run out of the room either.  We are interrupted when Brick comes home.  I was hoping to be done with this conversation before he got back.  I am not one to share too much of myself or my feelings so this is hard for me.
Plus if she shoots me down I would rather it be just between us. 

Brick

     I get home and walk into the living room to see Penny holding Tank's hand.  I may have missed my shot with this girl already.  They both looked up at me.  Tank with disappointment and Penny with surprise.  I survived a gunshot wound so I can survive this.  I tell them both "Tank and Penny I need to talk to the both of you.  I would like you both to listen to me and wait until I am finished before you speak.  I left this morning because I really don't know where I fit in with you two.  If I am being honest I know since you two are sitting there holding hands then Tank most likely told you how he feels.  The truth is I also have feelings for you too Penny.  Tank you know you are my brother even if you are not blood related.  I love you man and have always considered you family.  I do not want to cause any problems between us.  I just feel that I need to get this out because I honestly have been thinking about moving back to the clubhouse.  Prez will not let me for now though.  So no matter what I guess you two or stuck with me.  I don't know how you feel Penny and I know you have a lot going on.  I will not pressure you and I will not ask you for any answers.  I just want you to know how I feel and if you decide you are not interested then no worries we will stay friends.  I can be an Uncle to that baby of yours.  If you decide you want Tank then I will be the first one to congratulate you.  I love Tank and I have some strong feelings starting for you.  I think you are a real special lady.   You know Tank is a really good man and he would take care of you.  Okay I said what I needed to say Tank all I ask is for you to realize why I had to do this.  I do not want to cause us any problems."  Tank looks at me but he doesn't say anything.  I am not sure if he is upset with me or not.  I usually can tell how he is feeling but right now I am at a lose.  Penny just seats there while opening and closing her mouth saying nothing. 

Penny

     I can not believe how this day is turning out.  I am pregnant by an unknown man yet I have two men telling me they have feelings for me.  I am really trying to figure out what I need to say to either one of them.  I look back and forth between these two beautiful men.  I have a choice for the first time with a man.  I get the nerve up and tell them "I really don't know what to say.  I think you both are really great men.  I like things about the both of you but right now I need to focus on my baby.  I don't feel like I could make a decision like that.  I would like for us all three to continue staying here together.  I don't want to get in between you two and have no plans doing so.  You two are really important to each other.  I would really like for both of you to be in my baby's life."  I am looking at both of them and see something in both of them I love.  However, right now I have to get through this pregnancy and find a way to take care of us both.  I am ready to stand on my own two feet.  I do not want to be in a situation depending on a man again like with my brother. 

     I go into the kitchen to fix us something to snack on and I can hear both of them talking.  I really hope they do not let this come between them.  I get busy so that I can avoid facing either one for a few minutes.  I mean I really never thought I would be in this situation.  I never thought any man would want me ever again except for sex.  Not many men would want to be involved with a woman who is carrying another man's child.  I have no clue who my baby belongs too.  Stephan had so many men he let use me that this baby could belong to at least fifteen different men.  I don't care though.  I just want someone to love and to love me.  I want to have a family of my own and I don't believe that I will ever have the fairy tale we all grew up on.  I finish up making the guys some tuna salad sandwiches.  I know I need to just go ahead and act normal with them for now.  Maybe once this baby is born I can determine if I like either one enough to make a go at it.  To be honest they both would make really good boyfriends.  They maybe big biker men and tatted up but I have experienced the sincerity of both of them.  I call the guys to come eat.  They both come into the dining room and both give me a look.  I have a feeling these two have been making plans and I am not sure if I am ready for whatever it is.

Tank

     Brick and I had a talk while Penny made something to eat.  We both want to talk to her and see if she would be willing to sort of date us both.  We would like to both see if what we are feeling is the real thing.  I have never dated women just pretty much just fucked and that's it.  I could have been serious with Cherise but she just felt more like a sister to me so I ended up backing away from that one.  I love the girl but it was just different.  I don't know what it is about Penny but she just does something to me.  I know her history and I know she is pregnant by another man but so what.  I would love her kid and help her raise it.  I would show her not all men are scum.  I mean I had the piece shit step father and I would never do that to a kid.  I could see Penny having a little Penny and man that would be too damn cute.  Penny is a small female and she is pretty.  She doesn't seem to think so but several us bikers do.  She is sweet and loving.  She is also an awesome cook.  I ain't going to lie I have gained weight being around that one.  I have missed home cooked meals.  I mean even when I lived at home my mother made whatever my stepfather wanted, she could have cared less about me.  I look over at Penny and I can tell she is nervous.  Brick and I plan on talking to her after we eat.  I don't want to scare her off but I want to make sure she knows we are serious.  I know Brick is also serious about her and he most likely feels same as me about her.  He grew up with just his grandmother so he is missing the same thing I am. 

Brick

     I am watching Penny and wondering what she will say once we talk to her.  I can see she is a little bit overwhelmed by all this.  I just hope she knows just how much we mean it.  I would love to have her as my ole lady.  I know Tank feels the same way.  I would hate to lose her to another man but knowing Tank I know she would be taking care of.  Penny is a very sweet, caring and loving person even though she has every reason not to be.  She reminds me of the women my grandma always told me to look for.  I wish my grandma was still alive she would love her to death.  They would get along good with being in the kitchen cooking together.  I know Penny loves baking just like grandma.  I don't know where any of this will go but I have never wanted to try with a woman like this.  Just like Tank and several other biker brothers I just slept with the women.  I feel different around Penny.  She makes me want to be a better man.  I love the thought of being a father to her baby.  I know her situation has not been the greatest but she is such a strong woman.  I look over Tank too and I can see that he too is feeling pretty strong about this girl of ours.  I will never let a woman come between us but if I see she is more drawn to Tank I will take a step back.  I will never lose my brother.  Tank may not be blood but he is the brother I always wanted.  I am trying to think of the right way to talk to Penny when we finish up to make her understand how I am feeling.  I have never been good with words though.  Tonight has been a very quiet dinner.  I do believe we all have our minds on the conversation from earlier.  Only time will determine how this all works out.  No matter who she chooses though I will always be there for her little munchkin.