Conquering the Alpha (BxB) - Werewolf Story

Chapter 25: Owner of a Lonely Heart

Pain. That is my new company.

I thought getting to know my birth father was painful and it was.

Seeing that man living his best life, working for a major company, was distressful, to say the least. Especially considering I did not want to see him when I did. It was a complete surprise and shock even to find him in Texas. I guess I really don't know anything about him, much less where he was born. Well, now I know.

Still, that would soon pass and it'll become just a rather painful memory of my loss of a father. There's nothing new there, to be honest. I am 18 years old, I am over now not having a dad. It was painful when I had to draw 'Father's Day' cards in elementary school. Now it's mostly a nuisance.

But this is a whole new ballgame.

On Sunday, October 6th, I returned from Texas with the twins only to find a taciturn Jayden moping around Ravenwood. At first, I didn't know what that was about but I would soon find out that his grandfather talked smack about me to his mother and now he can no longer pursue a marital contract with me. She blocked me even before I could meet her.

Basically, we are dead in the water.

Have you ever started going out with a new guy and all your girl friends who met him told you the same thing? That he was going to break your heart? But you still wouldn't listen to the voice of reason?

In the end, he did break your heart just like your trusted girls had told you. And now you are broken and it is up to them to pick up the pieces. I hear you, girl. I feel you. Nothing breaks like a heart.

I knew I was punching above my weight class, as the British would say. In fact, I was punching so far above my weight class that I might as well be Muhammad Ali [Cassius Clay]. I have always known it was going to be an uphill battle for the chance to be with Jayden, what I didn't know was that I wouldn't even have the chance to fight for him.

Had I known Alpha Lockwood was going to spend his birthday weekend talking about me to his daughter, the Alpha of the White Claw pack in Georgia, I would have gone with him to defend myself. The whole point of me not going is to avoid becoming a talking point.

I guess he sucker punched me when I was least expecting. That is why they say you should never turn your back on your enemy. Because stuff like that might happen and you will end up getting knocked out.

I am devastated over losing Jayden.

He was the boy who I learned to love. He was the boy who conquered my heart. He was 'it' for me. No doubt about it. I was head over heels for him, and still am. Nothing changed, except we don't get to kiss and hug anymore.

Tears fell from my eyes.

An insurmountable pain washes over me at the distinct feeling that he was the one for me. I had no other prospects except for him. I mean, there is Roberto, the foreign exchange student, but I am not moving into another country - especially one in which I don't know the language.

No, Jayden was my only chance of being claimed by anyone here. Now I am not just alone and deserted, I am lonely. Aching for a bond like I had with him but I won't find it with anybody else. Those who could find me interesting had the mixer to do so.

If nothing good came from that - unlike my best friend Seth who has been drowning in dates lately - I hardly have any hope for the next one a month from now. Real talk, by November most of the students will start traveling back to their packs with their prospective partners to introduce to their parents.

It's time to get a move on. April will come when you least expect it. And contract negotiations can turn sour at any point. Unless you are a Stronghold, in which case you are so rich and powerful that you can work anything into the contract.