Baarish.....

part-18

Naina's pov
Its been two days he is gone and i kept thinking about the last text he sent to me....
Last!!! As if he has sent me numerous texts!!!!
Its the only text i got from him....
But i didn’t understand the meaning....
I kept thinking though..
Maa baba and alekh are trying hard and sole to keep me happy...
My husband went abroad leaving me here,and I'm supposed to be sad about it....
But somewhere I'm feeling relief...
I'm happy that my presence wont disturb him...
I'm happy that i wont see his angry eyes....
I'm happy that he will be happy.... With his beloved..... Without his unwanted wife....
Wife!!!! I'm just a nobody to him...
Though i did whatever i should do as his wife..... Till now....and in return he gave me some money???!!!  For my expense??!!!
I m so confused right now.....his evry behaviour is confusing me..... And the text is also one of them!!!
I am sorry ka kya matlab!!!
Mere baba bachpan mein jab bazar se mere liye kuch lana bhul jate the...tab mujhe sorry kehtethe.....
Maine rajveer ji se kuch manga hi nahi!!!!!
Post master kaka ke sath mujhe College jana tha,per who busy the toh mujhe nahi le ja sake. Tab usne mujhe sorry kaha tha...
Rajveer ji ke sath kahi jana.... Na baba na....ye toh ho hi nahi sakta...
Aj tak jab bhi kisi ne mujhe sorry kaha woh sirf mera kareeb walo ne kaha....jiski koi bhi reason rajveer ji ke sath match nahi karta.....
Pata nai.....kyu kaha hoga sorry...
Shayed galati se beja hoga.....
Warna woh kyu mujhe sorry kehega.....main hu hi kaun uske liye.....
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Alekh took out for my passport application.... He is acting so stubborn... Keh raha tha ki romew juliet ko milane ka kasam khaya hain....isn’t it funny....
After passport office me, him along with our friends are going to a moll.after lunch we planned for a movie....
Alekh being alekh chosen a cringe, romantic movie....
I never liked romantic movie.... Matlab...aisa bhi hota hain kya!!!!
Jo bhi ho.....i just kept waiting for the movie to end....
But suddenly a scene got my attention....
The hero was having an extra Martial affair with his girl friend and he left his wife for the girl friend saying
I am sorry!!!!
Suddenly my throat feeling so dry....my voice is not coming out...
He is not coming back!!!! He left me for ever!!!! He left me for the love of his life!!!!  He is going to divorce me!!!!! My marriage is gonna break!!!!
But why this is hurting so much??? This was meant to happen right??? He was determined to leave me from the very beginning  right???  Then why it hurts??? Am i being greedy??? I shouldn’t expect anything that is not mine.... I'm as usual so pathetic.....  No one can stay with me.....choti ma ne kaha tha..... Its must be my fault that he decided to leave me.....
I looked at alekh...and tell him to bring me home....I'm not feeling well....and he brought me home....
Ma and baba were so worried for me...i assured them that I'll be okay after some rest. They let me.....
I came to the room...his room....
Where I'm not allowed to touch anything....
I touch the pillow where he slept.... His things..... His necessities..... I kept them as it was....
A deep sigh left from my lips...i change into my night wear.. for the first time i change here....not in the bathroom.... There was no one coming or watching me here right???...
Then i made my bed as usual and  slept..... With aching a heavy heart.....
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Rajveers pov
Its been ti days I'm here...in London.... Far from my family.... Far from her....
I came here to think without any disturb.....i need space to clear my mind....space from everyone... Even from nandini.....
I Don't intend to drag her in this mess....
But the worst part is.....now a days im acting like a creep.....i came here to be far from naina....but she is in my mind all the time....lije seriously!!!!
My whole house is under security camera.....i personally installed one in by bedroom also before i came here....
For why???
Of course to see her....to observed her....to keep eye on her.....
I know I'm acting like a stalker... But i can't help it.....
Im watching her sleeping like earlier...... Silly girl!!!
She can sleep on bed right??!!!
She is so stubborn..... But m i not responsible for it!!! I forbidden her to be away from everything that belongs to me....fuck me.....
Alekh called today,that she applied for passport... They went for a outing with friends and returned home early as she wasn’t feeling good....
I watch my parents to pamper her in the dinning table.... She ate very little and headed to the bedroom.....
I Switch my phone to open the bedroom camera.... Its personal you know......
I watch her touching my pillows with an unknown emotion in her eyes......she is in deep thought....  May be sad.....or sick.....
And then she took her nightwear to change..... I was thinking her to go to the bathroom for changing like every day but to my utter surprise she slides down her saree pallu.....right in my bedroom.... Right infront of tge camera....while I'm watching her changing..... Shit.....
Should i close my eyes???? Or close my phone????? Cant she switch off the lights????
She remove her saree.....the blouse..... Leaving her upper body in a bra.....i can see te black straps....... Sticking her milky skin........will she remove the bra too???
Suddenly my phone started ringing and hurriedly cut it down..... I reopened the camera footage to find that my wife is changed to her nightwear.....
I curse myself for not recording the footage..... I curse the person who called too.....bloody idiot.....
Seeing a women half naked without her knowledge is not right.... But she is my wife..... I've right to see her this way right???
I Console myself saying this after such a unethical act of mine.....