Destructive Desires

CHAPTER 15

THIRD PERSON POV

It's been almost one month of both husband and wife playing this effort game

At one point Satvik realised that because of him going so early to office and coming late Sandhya was not getting enough sleep because she would wake up early and sleep late ,it was normal for him who had troubling in sleeping but for her it was too much , so he stopped going to office so early but coming back late was something he did not stopped doing and today was no special day

Coming back at 1 at night he found Sandhya Engrossed in a movie the lights were dim and the glow that was casted on her face was due to the light coming from the tv , her expression changing with the fast changing scenes on the screen clearing his throat he caught her attention , picking up the remote beside her she switched off the television , seeing him she smiled and welcomed him but to Satvik it was mocking , it was as if she was silently saying keep trying but I won't back down being on edge he said ''until when are you trying to do it , can't you see it's pointless''

Listening to this Sandhya's steps were halted ''what was it today some antique wine or an expensive whiskey , which bottle was lucky today to be opened by you and get empty'' she said in a mocking tone

''wife'' Satvik said in a warning tone not liking the way she is pointing out his bad habit

''what it hurts when it is being put into words , I just don't know Satvik to be honest I don't like you drinking everyday , it's fine when it is occasional ''

She said in a soft tone hoping for this conversation to not become into something big

''you didn't had problem from the past one month but suddenly now you have problem with my drinking'' he spat in anger

''no Satvik I had problem with it from the starting , I didn't said it because you are struggling with work , with pressure with this whole situation , I am clearly not the comfort place for you , so if drinking and smoking provides you some peace I am ready to cope with it and talk with you about it once thing settle down'' she gave an explanation to him , it was true drinking was a way for him to be cut off from the inner turmoil he was having but not giving in he said

''so what , you think doing this wait at night and send lunch to me thing will make us a perfect marriage couple''

''no it will not , I know it clearly but I try to make conversation with you , talk with you , you are the one ignoring me , you are the one deliberately coming late at night'' now even Sadhya's voice was rising and their talk converted into a fight

''it's because I don't want to have a conversation with you , I don't want to talk about my day with you'' Satvik said in an equally raised voice

''then don't , don't talk to me , I don't force you to talk with me I just hope that , in the many nonsense ques I ask , you will reply to at least one , but on the other hand your actions and words indicate that you want me to not continue this'' she hit a point it was truly what he wanted and instead of denying it he thought to say it directly

''yes I am doing it so you would stop doing this , it's burdening for me''

As much as Sandhya was angry and hurt , she didn't backed down

'' burdening for you , we are together in this as much burdening it is for you it is the same is me , all this is new for both of us , you think I got it easy with no one to talk to in this big house always dreading the possibility that what if everything stays as it is , always on edge and above all I am worried about you the most that is the reason I always smile in front of you even on the days that are bad so when you see me you don't have to worry about me , because I know your day is always tiring so maybe waiting for you at the end of the day so we can eat together will tell you that you don't have to come to an empty house because I am waiting for you so if you want to talk about something I am there for you'' by now Sandhya was screaming with tears sliding down from her eyes , feeling weak she sat on the sofa with a thud

Seeing the hurt and tears that his action caused her Satvik was disappointed in himself he could not get a single word out of his mouth he thought she was putting her emotion and time into this marriage but in reality she was doing all this effort not for this marriage but for him and only him

''wife I—'' his voice was cracking he tried to form a sentence , tried to come up with a reply

''don't call me , do whatever you want'' saying this she stood and left from there without having dinner , throwing his bag on the floor he cursed loudly , that night they both slept in different rooms because Satvik was to ashamed to face her and Sandhya was to angry to see him