Destructive Desires

chapter 20

SATVIK POV

crash , I tumbled the whole table of my office I can no longer take it , I what did I do , there was a family dinner in which I was not present because I am a biggest asshole and fucker , after checking my phone I came across her 20 miss calls , 15 messages asking me to come she even contacted Aryan to reach me , he also tried convincing me to reach out to her , at this moment he is better than me , hell everyone is better than me

I saw the cctv footage when everyone was against her , but instead of protecting herself she protected me , she told with so much authority that she only cares about me and I am the only one for her and here like some cheap man I questioned her

The door of the room opened and my men came inside , probably because I upturned the big table kept in my office , I am not in my Singhania company office , it's an office I secretly build no one knows about it

Seeing the mess they were clear that something happened to trigger me like this ''call Sameer'' I ordered them

In no time I was on phone with him ''Sameer it's time we start showing our presence to the world''

''but boss your plan was to wait for some more time , suddenly'' his voice came as a little shocked

''no they messed with the wrong person , now they will pay the price for it'' in my eyes I couldn't see anything but the scene where she slumped down on the chair with a tear trained face.

''also contact Mr. Romani and request him to prepone the date of our meeting''

After the call ended , I engrossed myself in work because I need to shake those people who insulted my wife , the wall clock showed it was 8 at night feeling the need to see my wife I took my car keys and settled in it but I was not able to drive , how will I face her , is she still angry of course she will be angry , is she waiting for me like usual

Gathering my courage I started driving and reached home, our home

I saw her in the kitchen doing some work , seeing me she paused for a second before resuming her work

''I – I am hungry'' dammit instead of apologising to her I said this

Quickly serving the dinner she indicated me to sit down , I thought she will again go to living room but to my surprise she sat down beside me

Guilt was consuming me so I decided to tell her the truth '' I want to tell you something'' , leaving her food her whole focus was now on me , I told her everything from me listening to her conversation , to spending the night outside and even how I instructed Aryan to block all her calls and messages

I knew she would be hurt listening to this but me struggling to show emotions decided it was correct to tell her the truth instead of keeping her in the dark , instead of being hurt there was relief in her eyes I was confused about it but didn't said anything regarding it

Our dinner passed in silence , I was in no mood to work or do anything so I sat on a bench placed in the garden , this silence between us was killing me and I had no idea what to do

As the cold breeze was brushing against my skin I felt a warm hand on my shoulder , I looked up to see Sandhya standing and passing me smile , sitting beside me she passed me a cup of warm milk before taking one for herself

I kept looking at her she is so beautiful the moon casted a white glow on her face , reflecting it in her dark brown eyes , turning toward me she said ''sorry for what I did that day throwing away the food when you came and sat beside me , I was angry and it took out the worst in me , I hurt you''

''no it was me , who started all of it in the first place'' I replied in a soft tone , even after everything she is the one saying sorry to me , I don't deserve her

''I know I did so many things wrong , I promise I will never repeat the same mistake , I want to tell you something it's hard for me to deal with emotions , I don't know what emotions feel like , so when you came in my life and started showing me new side of it everyday I was confused , I am confused I don't understand how to show emotions'' I said feeling in the warmth of the hot milk ''it must be hard for you to live with me'' I said looking at her for an answer

Looking at the sky she said ''honestly I was hurt and angry that you were not with me , but when I think about it aren't you the one who saved me , faced the consequences of it alone , then why can't I protect you , the thing I was worried about was where are you are you safe or not''

I don't know what this thumping feeling is but I can tell it is new and I am liking it ''but why were you worried about me'' I couldn't help but ask

She looked like I am some kind of alien ''I am worried about you because we are each others family , we are now bound together'' my eyes blurred for a moment family it always sounded fake to me but form her mouth it sounds so loving

''also don't worry about emotions , it always takes time to figure out somethings in life, along the way everything falls in place , you just need to do what you feel like doing '' if I were to tell someone else about my emotion problem they would laugh at it , but only you my wife can assure me like this

''also no cold war from now we are getting back at our taking '' saying this she offered me her hand to stood up , taking it we went to our rooms for rest.