Help Me ~ c.d

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Alia's pov *

Waking up on the couch should not have happened this morning but it did. And I was alone. Where is Cameron? I immediately think as soon as I pull myself up to a sitting position.

"Cameron! Nash!" I call. No answer. I walk into the kitchen. Nothing. Nash's room. Nothing but a mess from our party-ish thing last night. I go into cam and I's room. Nothing. I go back to the living room and grab my phone. I quickly dial Cameron's number. He doesn't answer. I call Nash. Nothing. I call Matthew. Nothing. I call Taylor. Finally, an answer.

"Hello?" He says, puzzled.

"Oh thank god you answered I was worried! Cam is nowhere to be found and neither is Nash and they won't answer and Matt won't either and I'm scared." I cry.

"Hey, calm down. They had a meeting. They're planning the tour remember? I'm sure he just forgot to tell you. It's okay." Taylor calms me.

"What about you?" I ask.

"I'm in Dallas right now. " he explains. I nod and then realize he can't see me.

"Oh, okay." I say.

"I gotta go, Alia. See you soon." The dial tone makes Taylor's absence known. I try to get ready for today but instead throw on some black sweatpants and Cameron's favorite hoodie. I could feel the sickness coming on as I lay on the couch, watching tv. My eyes are barely open. I don't feel like talking when I hear the boys come in.

"What about a lab? Or a German shepherd?" Nash talks. I can't seem to realize what they're talking about.

"But she likes huskies." Cameron defends his idea. Suddenly I know they're talking about dogs. In no way am I feeling in the mood to be lonely in the morning again. But I don't want to bother with it right now as I'm in a lot of pain and feel like crap. Cameron walks into the living room where I lay.

"Feeling okay?" He asks. I shake my head.

"No." I grunt.

"Good news. We're leaving for tour soon!" Nash says, excited. "And we can take a dog if we get one because we have your busses and will rarely stay in hotels." He adds. I smile. Maybe I do feel okay.

• • •

"C'mon, we gotta get ready! We're leaving in like an hour!" I exclaim, putting on a few final touches to my eyeliner. Today is the first day of tour. Of course the only two people in our household willing to wake are me and the newest addition Jaxx, an adorable little husky puppy.

At five minutes to go before we leave both boys are officially packed and ready. We all climb into a cab and tell them the name of the airport we're meeting everyone at. We arrive just in time.

Once we pay the driver and exit we see the bus with the big words "MagCon" on the side. Cameron takes both our suitcases and drag them behind us while I carry the dog's items - food, crate, treats, toys. In my hand I also hold onto Jaxx with a vice like grip. Man, can he pull. We get to the tour bus and meet the boys' managers. The three tour buses have simple arrangements. Two are for the performers, one for the workers, bodyguards, and helpers.

Suddenly I hear a voice I recognize so well. I spin around and see a red headed beauty racing towards me.

"Mahogany!" I squeal and pull her into a hug, dropping the items I carried. Except jaxx's leash.

As everybody slowly arrived things began to began to get brighter. And louder. Everyone was excited.

• • •

| cameron |

"I don't love you anymore! Let go! Get away from me!" She screamed at me. My heart ached as I slowly rose from my knee. The ring box falling from my hand. She continued to scream at me. Words that broke my heart into billions of pieces, shattering me.

"Cameron!" My entire body jolts up, my head banging into something.

"Agh!" I wince. I suddenly realize something. The sheets stick to me from the thick sweat covering my body. I look at the short area of light and see her. The one who was screaming. She had been calling my name but at the same time she was the one who told me she didn't love me. She reaches forward and wraps her arms around me. I move my hand from my head and push her away. I stare at her.

"Cameron." Her voice hardly a whisper now. "It's me." I see the tears in her eyes.

"You said you didn't love me." I spit, feeling the acid in the words.

Suddenly Matthew appears, clutching Alia as she starts to slip down the silent sobs rack her body. He pulls her out of my line of view and out of the bus. I feel someone yank my arm and pull me to my feet. Disoriented I'm slammed on a bench of leather seating. I feel the pain of getting slapped after it happens.

"It was a nightmare you monster! You were screaming and yelling and she was trying to help you wake up! You broke her heart!" Nash screams in my face.

"It felt real!" I can't feel any more terrible. My life has been changed by this girl and now I've blown it.

Hours of lecturing and tears later, I throw on a shirt and go outside to where Alia is. I send Matthew inside and sit down next to her. She seems to be distant, cold. I want to wrap my arms around her and warm her but I can't. Not after what I've done.

"I'm sorry." I start. "You know I didn't mean it. It was a dream and I took it way too far and I'm sorry." I apologize, the words spilling quickly.

She starts to shake her head. "It's just that you were screaming 'I hate you'. And then I found out you were dreaming about me."

"It meant nothing. I love you more than anything I have ever known. I don't know how to stop. I can't wait to be in your hometown next week. I want to know your life from before we met at that Starbucks almost two years ago. I love you." I spill. "I just hate myself I think. For being an insomniac and when I do sleep, getting all delirious and thinking I hate the ones I love, and for being so distant to the fans. I just hate myself." I let the words flow from my lips so naturally. Before I could realize what was happening u felt her lips crash against mine. Our lips moved in sync as I got into the kiss. I pushed her up against the bus. She gripped my hair and tugged on it. I let a groan pass my lips before continuing the kiss. I slowly transition to where I'm almost on top of her. I push my hips against hers. Before it can get any more heated she breaks the kiss by turning away.

"We can't. We have to wait Cameron." She breaths. I nod.

"I understand."

"Now, let's go back inside and I'll stay in your bunk with you. " she suggests. I nod, noticing it's close to dawn. She takes my hand and leads me inside where she climbs into the bunk first and I climb in after her. She faces the wall and I suddenly become the big spoon, wrapping my arms around her.

Before long we both fall asleep.

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a/n: hey

So sadly I feel like this book has been dragging on

I'm not entirely ready to stop but I have no clue what to do with this book anymore.

So there will be two more chapters and then I will post an epilogue or maybe a few of them to show many things in the future.

Never fear, I am a Cameron girl so there will be more Cameron books soon

I am also deleting a lot of my stories that I have no will to write anymore.

I feel really sad about u but it is the best for me to do.

I need a new start.

I hope you all don't mind. Thank you.

P.s. I'm currently pissed at my bf bc he's been ignoring me and I want to punch him and in tired from my Taylor swift concert which was the best thing ever and Shawn sounded great opening for her I cried bc of him

Ily guys

Ok byee