the gamer that became a pokemon trainer

Chapter 1. The Gamer who became a Pokémon Trainer!

As I float in this never ending abyss I can't help but reminence of what once was my life, the memories just started to flow and I couldn't help but remember my life even though I wish I didn't, the memories of the last days of my life before i died alone, tired and and full of regrets were the ones more vividly in my mind.

I had a tough life that's for sure but until the very last minute I refused to complain, i was sure that there were people out there, who had it worse and I least had food and a roof over my head.

But those last days of my life showed me how alone I truly was, no family members even bothered to check on me nor do I think they cared.

After all... I had learned at a very young age that i wasn't wanted by most of my family, my mom left my father when i was very young, my brother hated me for reasons I still don't understand and the rest of the family turned their back on me when I needed them most.

I only had my grumpy old dad who took care of me and supported me as much as he could and I was happy to support him on his old age but even those days were now long gone.

I worked hard everyday to support myself and many might be wondering why I've never married... heh the truth was, i was once married a long time ago but that marriage was an unhappy and toxic one.

I was cheated on and treated like garbage, that left a horrid scar in my heart one that refused to heal and in fear of ever trusting someone again i refused to open my heart to anyone ever again.

This is why I found myself alone in the last moments of my life and now in this massive empty abyss i was alone once again, i couldn't help but to think that maybe this was my destiny.

I don't know how long I've been here days? years? or perhaps more? I truly don't know but even here, in this abyss I found some peace among the ever present loneliness that i feel.

Sounds crazy no? well for someone who had spent hours upon hours working and trying to survive this beautiful and harsh world, a place like this where all I can do is peacefully float around and rest, is paradise.

But those pesky regrets make resting difficult and the fact that i was dead and unable to do anything about them was frustrating.

Suddenly I was blinded by a bright orb of light which to my surprise spoke to me "do you want a second chance? a chance to live a life without regrets? a life where the end isn't dying alone on your bed in a dark and gloomy apartment?".

I frowned, of course I would like a second chance, who wouldn't? but I have read enough fanfiction and manga, watched so many movies and anime that I was fully aware that something like this wasn't going to be free.

The orb of light must have sensed my doubts because it spoke softly to me next "I know this seems suspicious and shady but rest assured, the only gain I would receive is finally having a host and being able to keep existing and living through you".

A host? keep existing and living? what was this being before me that needs a host to keep existing? and what does it wanted with me?.

But the being seemed to know about questions running through my mind because not a moment later, it answered them "i am the small remnants of a goddess, one who had began to cease to exist after the humanity of your world forgot about me in favor of the Christian god".

Ah i see.. she was forgotten and abandoned like I was but she must have been alone for far longer that I could ever comprehend.

The orb of light spoke once again "I have already forgotten my name and soon enough I'll disappear but... I don't want to die, I want to keep existing... however here, in this abyss only the forgotten and the souls going through reincarnation can be found, so I couldn't even begin to find a host and so I waited and waited for some one to appear and finally you did...".