NAVIGATING 5 - tadgh lynch

5 - Lilibeth

14th march, 2005

The four of us sat on the wall next to the chipper, sharing 2 bags between each other, when a familiar car pulled up in front of us. Gibs? What the fuck was he doing here? He rolled down the window. I gave the bag of chips I was holding to Annalise, and approached the car, leaning against his window.

"What are you doing here, Cena?" Most people get confused at the nickname, but there's not much to it other then he used to go full John Cena body slam on me when he was 14 and bored. "I thought you were at hotshot Kavanaghs?" He dubbed out his cigarette.

"Get in the car please, Lils." I furrowed my brows, but thought better then to think twice. I waved quickly to my friends and scrambled into the passenger seat. 
"Is everything okay?" I asked, buckling my seatbelt as he pulled onto the main road. 
"You know I don't like that Lynch fella'" He told me, and i felt my blood begin to boil. 

"That's what this is about?! Tadhg?" I gaped, and he shrugged "Are you taking the piss?"
"I just don't want you hanging around with the wrong people, Lils. You know i see you more as a sister then my cousin." I scoffed.

"Is that all I am for you then? A replacement sister?" He gave me a look that said 'You know what I mean' 
"Beth, I-" I cut him off. 
"No, you see Ger, I'm confused now. Did you mean Lilibeth or Bethany?" I shifted in my seat to look at him, and he pulled over into a random carpark. He gave me a hurt look. 
"I'm trying to say that I care for you like my sister, because I carry her loss with me everyday, and dads, and i see her in you."

"No, Gerard! Don't give me this whole grieving son and brother spiel, because, newsflash! You're not the only one! I've been through what you have. I've lost a parent, I lost my unborn brother, then i was sent away to live with family members I had met a solid 4 times in my life, and then I lost my mother. I've done the fucking grieving! And I've done the whole Mark thing too, so before you go all acting the protective older brother and try to control my life, remember you're not the only bleedin' victim." I fold my arms and face out of the windshield. "Take me home." 

"Lil's, please, I just want what's best for you, and I really don't think he's a good influence." He argued, still not taking me the fuck home. 
"You know he's Shannon Lynch's brother? What would Kav say if he found out you we're badmouthing the wee brother of the girl he's been swooning over, hm? Maybe I'll tell him myself."

"Lilib-"
"Take me home, Gerard."
But he couldn't, because your supposed to feel safe in your home, and i don't. Not since 2000. In fact, my home left me on the 2nd of May, 1998.

sigh. I don't know how to feel about this chapter, but I really wanted it to happen so yea. and I know Gibs doesn't hate Tadhg THAT much, but i felt the need. also, im starting school again tmr (kill me please) so updates wont be as regular. love you x