You Deserve *Trilogy (3 in 1)*

Chapter 17• Take Yo Main.

September 14th

Jaemoni POV

I been flipping out lately and I don't know why. I just black out and start acting a damn fool and don't remember doing it. It's happened 6 times in the last month, last night Rico recorded what I was doing and I honest to god don't even remember none of that. I think I need to get checked out cause this shits crazy yo I'm scaring the hell out myself. Mommy said I'm having Psychchotic Breakdowns. Jaeshawn scared of me now and I don't like that shit. He won't look me in my face for shit and he quiet Now my son ain't never been quiet around me. I attack Rico every time, I never did any serious damage to him except The third time I sprained his left wrist. The only reason I haven't done serious damage is because he fights me back.

Rico: Jewel picked up Shawn and Rimoni from school.

Me: alright.

Rico: what's wrong?

Me: my son is scared of me he barely talks when I'm around now.
Rico: cause he think you go snap again he probably think he go say something to set you off.

Me: I didn't hurt him did I?

Rico: you was being rough as hell with him.

Me: fuck man why didn't you stop me!?

Rico: I did when I realized you was hugging him to hard and he was finna cry, Jae you don't realize the only thing that stops your breakdowns is locking your ass in the closet? You know how fucking hard it is to restrain your ass to even get you in there?

Me: I'm sorry.

Rico: fuck sorry Jae! You broke my damn wrist, you fucking attack me every fucking time what did I do to you!?

Me: I don't know Ric I really don't.

Rico: you got a problem Jae you need to get help I almost had to call an ambulance to put your ass to sleep.

Me: next time it happens do it, I don't wanna hurt you or the kids Rico.

Rico: if I do that they're gonna put you in a mental home Jae.

Me: I don't care as long as I get this shit under control.

Rico: you not go get shit under control being in a mental institution that's go make yo ass even worst.

Me: I love you.

Rico: I love you to.

Me: where Nashawn?

Rico: in the backyard on face time with Micah.

Me: when they get older its go be over.

Rico: I know Nashawn ain't letting up off her and vice versa.

Me: puppy love.

Rico: Nashawn!

Nashawn: hold on!

Me: look Ric.

We both look out the window where got a clear view of his phone Micah was laughing and Nashawn pressed his lips to the front camera and Micah did the same. Me and Rico busted out laughing they done took kiss me through the phone to a whole 'nother level. Nashawn came in putting his phone in his pocket.

Nashawn: yes?

Me: kissing my Lil sister through the phone.

Nashawn: so? She's my girlfriend.

Rico: word?

Me: so what you getting her for her birthday?

Nashawn: a plane ticket.