A secret desire.

Feel something.

Lucia's POV.

I walk back into the gym with Viv after cleaning my head up and washing the remains of blood out my hair.

Everyone is just staring at either the ceiling, floor or into the nothingness.

"Is everyone alright?" Viv speaks up.

"It was never you." Leah replies but talking to me.

She looks up at me and we connect our eyes for the first time in over 10 months.

"Oh for fuck sake, Beth come on man!" I complain.

"I'm sorry Lucia, i couldn't let them walk all over you anymore!" She replies.

Katie looks up at me, "I'm sorry.."

"Huh, what was that?" i reply.

She takes a deep breath and replies with "I'm sorry, Lucia. For the way i treated you."

I stand there looking at everyone one by one, seeing all the guilty, sympathetic looks coming from everyone's eyes.

I shake my head and speed walk out the gym to my car and head home.

"Hi Jonas, i felt a bit dizzy and nauseous half way through the gym so i've decided to come home. Sorry for not talking to you there, it completely slipped my mind." I lie through my teeth after Jonas picked up the phone.

"Oh it's okay! Get well soon because we have Manchester City to play against on Sunday." He jokes causing me to let out a soft laugh, it was Thursday today so i had 4 days to get better.

"I'll try, see you!" I reply.

"See you soon Lucia." He replies back allowing me to end the phone.

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It's coming towards 9pm so i decide to go and cook something for myself seen as my hunger was starting to take over my body but as i get up i hear a knock at the door.

I walk up the door and unlock it slowly.

I open the door and i am surprised to see a certain blonde stood on my doorstep.

"Can i come in?" She asks.

I nod my head at her and step out the way of the door allowing her to walk into my house.

"I haven't seen this place in months, you haven't changed it much have you?" Leah says clearly trying to make conversation.

"Nope, i don't like change." I admit.

"Fair enough." She replies. "Anyway, are you okay after today." She finishes.

"I'm okay, it was just too overwhelming being in that gym with nearly everyone staring at me with those stupid sympathy eyes." I huff.

"We are all sorry Lucia. But i'm more sorry than anyone else in that team." She pauses and walks up to me. "I haven't spoken to you for 10 whole months, we were inseparable! You lied to everyone allowing yourself to get hurt and bullied to protect Jordan.."

"Jordan was also my friend you know and i didn't want her going through what i've been going through le."

"I lost you, you were my other half Luce. I'm so sorry." She says whilst bringing me in for a hug and wraps her arms tightly around my neck. I don't move for a few seconds before a raise my hands and rest them on her waist.

"I love you, Lucia. You're my best friend and i'm not loosing you again." She says as she puts both hands on my cheeks and smiles at me causing me to smile back at her.

"I love you, Leah. I can't imagine going through that again."

Leah ordered a pizza instead of cooking because after that conversation, i really couldn't be bothered to cook.

The time was 12:29am and me and Leah are still up watching some random movie I don't even know the name of.

"It's crazy to think how all this time has been me openly hating you knowing i could never actually hate you in any way whatsoever." She laughs causing me to let out a soft chuckle myself.

She rests her head on my lap that had a pillow on it and drifts of to sleep, making me slowly fall asleep too.

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NOW TIME FOR THE LOVEEE STORY BITCHES😏