A secret desire.

Leah's head.

(i named this chapter leah's head because it's all about how leah feels 💕)

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"SHE NEVER FUCKING POSTED IT!" were the words that came out of Beth's mouth a random thursday morning gym session.

Lucia never posted the photo in the first place, i hadn't even looked at her or acknowledged her for over 10 months because i thought she was the shittiest, most fakest person ever after what she did but it turns out it was never her.

When i first joined Arsenal academy at a very young age, i had always had an eye on Lucia. Sometimes in THAT way but also as a best friend way. We didn't speak for almost 6 months because i think she was kind of scared to talk to me or something like that because i was like 2-3 years older than her or something like that. But as soon as she came up to me a random training session and said "hey leah!", i just knew that was the beginning of a long, loving, inseparable friendship.

On the other side of the feelings route, She's a beautiful girl and i love everything about her. Especially now i know she didn't post that photo in the first place as well. back when we were around 19 and 17, a year after i signed my first professional contact, my feelings began to develop to the distance that was set between us due to me not training and playing with the academy. But after being in the senior team for a while, i got to know someone named Jordan Nobbs. The woman that actually posted the photo and was lucky to have a good friend to take the blame for her, she's dead in the next Villa v Arsenal game i'm fucking telling you.

When Luce was 15 and I was just turned 17, We shared a little moment..

*flashback*

"Leah stop ticking me!" Lucia screeches whilst laughing causing me to laugh harder and tickle her more.

"Leah! Ahhh stop" She continues.

She makes a move and pushes me back onto the sofa behind me but i had my arm on her waist still holding onto her shirt because i was tickling her and she came falling on top of me as a went down from her push.

Our faces were inches apart and we stayed there for what felt like hours but was only 20 seconds. She looked at my lips and back up to my eyes, damn i want to kiss her so bad.

I started leaning in before we heard the front door fly open and my brother comes charging in.

"WHATS UP LOOSERS!" my brother shouts as he walks into the living room where me and Lucia were.

Lucia had already flew off me as she probably didn't want my brother to know about whatever that was, and it stayed like that.

No one actually found out about that apart from Vivianne because as soon as Lucia joined the first team and signed for them, She immediately got along with Vivianne Meidama for some reason. She plays on right forward so she loves assisting viv's goals all the time. I think last season over half of viv's goals were scored by Lucia's assists.

Anyway, i do like Luce in that way, quite a lot actually, but i shut those feelings away when i got with Jordan and completely when i found she had done that to me. But after me and Jordan broke up and now, now i know she didn't do it. All of those feeling have just come rising up to the surface again..

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Her and Vivianne had just walked back into the gym after cleaning up her head, "Is everything alright?" Viv asked.

"It was never you.." I said to Lucia.

And after i had said that, i looked up and our eyes immediately connected. The feeling of butterflies lingered in my stomach for a while when i had finally come to know, I'm not letting go off what this could be EVER again.

I have a feeling me and Lucia will get along extremely well after this..

She was my secret desire.