A secret desire.

Manchester.

It's a few days post what happened and i've never felt more uncomfortable in my life. I've had one training session aswell, ONE. And the only thing i get is those silly sympathy eyes or the 'hey are you okay' every 5 fucking seconds. It's doing my head in.

The training session was different to say the least, i was with Vivianne all day. Like ALL day. I went over hers after training and cooked pasta with her and whatever. Beth was out with Steph so it was just a girly, not so 'girly', night in. Me and Viv were up all night slagging half of the world's population off.

But one thing i haven't mentioned that i told Viv but not you guys, yet. Is a weird moment I shared with the Irish brunette this lunchtime at training.

Her breakup with Ruesha has really hit hard, clearly. They broke up last night whilst Leah was over mine and today she's just been.. weird. Not her normal self basically.

She walked into the bathroom during Lunch break and so i followed her in because we obviously needed to talk anyway after everything that was basically announced to the squad.

"Katie?" I say as I appear from behind the wall, i meet Katie's eyes and she immediately tenses.

"Lucia, i'm sorry. Leave me alone please." She replies gently, surprising coming from her.

"Hey hey what's wrong." I comfort whilst wrapping my arms around Katie's shoulder and pulling her in for a hug.

She explains everything that happened the night before which I told you about, Her breakup with Ruesha.

"I'm sorry you have to go through this." Convenient after what i went through. Now, now i'm not comparing because they were together for a loooong time.

"Oh shush, i put you through hell." point out the obvious Katie seriously..

"I know but look at us now!" i smile trying to lighten up the depressing mood that has settled in the air of the bathroom.

Katie looks up to me and smiles for a few seconds, but then she looks down at my lips. What is this girl doing..

"ay ay ay, look at me like that again i'll throw hands." Katie laughs at my comment and releases herself from the hug.

"I'm sorry, it's just my emotions are running high and wild so i'm just in need of feeling something you know?" she explains.

"Katie it's fine, feel something... Just not from me." i laugh causing her to laugh with me.

I stand up and head to the door, "you'll be okay yeah?" I make sure in which she gives me a slight nod of the head giving me the approval that i can go.

I also told Viv about the night before, you know.. When leah but HER HEAD ON MY LAP and fucking SLEPT on me. She was buzzing and i definitely was too, As you all know, i've had a crush on this blonde for god knows how many years but she doesn't know it yet. And i hope she never does find out, the fuck?

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We arrived in Manchester after an 4 and a half hour drive to the city from london. It was long and boring and time went way too slow. And what didn't help was that i couldn't sleep so i was just sat listening to Beth yap for 4 HOURS.

We got roomed up in the hotel ready to face Manchester City tomorrow evening meaning we will be staying in Manchester for a few nights.

I'll be roomed with Leah. Hehe.

I dumped my suitcase next to my bed and dived on to it straight after.

There was 2 single beds, a bathroom, a small kitchen and a little living area thing with a sofa and a TV. There was also a TV in front of both the beds which were only separated by a nightstand in between them. It was actually quite cosy and comfortable, i liked it.

"I'm too tired to even do anything after that long arse drive." Leah complains.

"Same, especially after listening to nothing but Beth yapping for over 4 hours was genuin torture. I love her and everything but bloody hell does she ever give it a rest." I reply, my northern accent coming out a little as i speak.

"BloOdY hELL." Leah mocks my accent, i knew she'd pick up on that.

"Shut.the.fuck.up" I reply with a little laugh as i grab the nearest pillow and launch it at her.

"You little bastard!" She shouts whilst throwing the pillow back at me.

In the matter of seconds, this has turned into a whole arse pillow fight and i won of course. That was into Leah threw herself on me causing my back to hit my bed as leah towers over me.

Normally, i'm the top but damn she's hot when she's on top of me like this.

I raise my eyebrows at her in a jokey way that she thankfully understood because she laughs and gets off me.

"Oh shut up, that would never happen in a million years." She laughs and turns away into the bathroom. I laugh with her before she closes the door behind her and i hear the shower turn on.

that would never happen in a million years.

Yikes.

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I'm loving where this book is going 🥸