A secret desire.

Dull mornings.

It's a dull morning in St. Albans but it's okay because the team will be travelling up to liverpool tomorrow to face liverpool tomorrow at 12:30.

I check the clock as it reads 7:24 am and i jump out of bed knowing i have to be at the training centre in just over an hour, so 8:30.

It takes me half an hour to get ready and as i packed all my shit last night, it's waiting at the door for me. I turn my hair straighteners off and pull my hair up into a slick ponytail and run out the door with my suitcase.

It takes me 20 minutes to drive to the training centre and i got there at 8:32. Meh, better late than never i guess.

I spot Katie and Caitlin getting out of their cars and i immediately panic as i have barely even spoke to Katie ever since, you know.

I begin to walk towards the training centre until i overhear Katie go to Caitlin, "Im going to go and speak to Lucia for a minute i'll be right back.."

That's when i realised she was coming over so I take a deep breath and blink twice.

In the matter of seconds Katie was stood beside me walking with me.

"It's a shit morning, weather wise." She says trying to make conversation.

"I know, i love Winter though sometimes." Baring in mind it is mid February and the weather was misty and cold but to be honest that's how i liked it. I hated summer because there's just to many downsides to it such as sweat, heat, dehydration, insects, unable to sleep at night due to how hot it can be. It's just a no for me. When you're cold you can just put layers on but when you're too hot, it's not like you can take your skin off your bones hoping it would cool you down. You're technically fucked at that point if you're too hot.

But i agree with Katie anyways because it makes the conversation shorter.

"Look, i know it's been rocky lately but i want to make it right so you are meeting me at the café on Tuesday." ( the day after we get back from Liverpool because it's a Sunday game. )

"Do i have a choice?" I ask as i finally look towards Katie and make eye contact with her.

"No you do not have a choice, thank you!" Katie finishes as she gives me a side hug and a cheeky smile and goes back to Caitlin.

I make my way into the dining room and see all the team sat on different tables.

Viv immediately notices me and gets up and bolts towards me and surprises me with a big hug. She lifts me off the ground and eventually places me back down, "What the actually fuck was that for!" I laugh.

"I missed you, haven't seen you since training on Thursday!" She replied.

"That was 2 days ago.."

"Exactly!"

"Viv, how do you have this much energy at 8 in the morning..?" I ask.

"I've had a coffee already so i'm hyper!" She replied before grabbing my hand and taking me to the table where she was sat before, it consisted of players like Beth, Steph, Victoria, Lia, Alessia and.. Leah.

I take a seat next to Viv on the end of the table and sink into my seat.

"WE LEAVE IN 15 MINUTES!" Jonas shouts from across the room.

15 minutes of sitting here secretly admiring the blonde sat opposite me, it's not that weird, is it?

I see Viv making sure i'm in the conversation at all times, i like how she knows when i don't feel like socialising, because she forces me to anyway. Bitch.

I look up ahead of me and accidentally make eye contact with those beautiful blue eyes, shit shit shit. Don't blush now for fuck sake! Lucia stop blushing.

I cut the eye contact after about 5 seconds and look down and pretend like i'm rubbing my face to hide my blush.

I feel my face cool down so i look up again and see a big smirk plastered all over Leah's face. Yep no, i'm gone.

I stand up knowing my face is bright red and i have a silly smile on my face and go to the toilet to calm down.

Just knowing that this girl hated the living shit out of me under a week ago is insane and now she's making me nervous just by a single look? What is wrong with me?!

I hear the bathroom door open and i'm comes Vivianne Meidama.

"And what would you want on this fine winter morning?" I ask.

"You and Leah, i can see it!" Talk about jumping straight to the fucking point and catching me way off guard.

"What! No! We are friends." I defend.

"Friends don't look at each other like that."

"It's just banter, i think.."