The second entry of my first love

11.past ll

I know that he was my friend and i spent a whole year with Sage but we don't have any kind of relationship, we mostly interacted like strangers. I had a sweet, lovely and fluffy friend bond with Stella, Kevin and Ruby; had rivalry friendship, always fighting, teasing and beating bond with Felix and Arthur; had a secret crush on Ulrike. But with Sage I never had any kind of bond and i don't even notice him, even if we had some sort of interaction sometimes i don't remember a thing about that.

For me he was no other than a stranger. The stranger who will soon make me lose myself.

I can't deny the old woman, so i started to sit with Sage. I got to know him for the first time. To my surprise he was not cold but gentle, humorous, kind and his heart melting smile that i have never seen and undoubtedly handsome. Just how did I never notice him before.

He helped me in my studies and treated me well really well so that my heart started beating weirdly.

I mean who wasn't touched by extreme care, gentleness, humorous and sweet smile that can melt the ice.
I like to spend time with him.

We became close in a short time and something inside my heart changed day by day. There's a thing, that he is nice and gentle to everyone, i was not an exception. At first I liked how nice he is to everyone but soon it started bothering me.

I didn't like when he talked with other girls and when he passed his sunshine like a smile to them my blood boiled like a volcano. I was confused why I was feeling this way. No he was not my crush cause the crush can be forgotten like Ulrike and can change with time and person, but the way i felt for him i never felt like this for anyone before and was sure i will never feel like this for anyone in future.

One day between our as usual fights i was about to throw my hands at Felix and Arthur but stopped when I felt warm hands around my waist, I looked back to see the person and my heart skipped a beat seeing Sage. Our face was really close, our eyes locked. I felt all my blood rush to my cheeks, i averted my eyes and came out of his grip. I didn't know why I was feeling this way.

Whenever we accidentally had a physical touch i felt butterflies in my stomach and it drove me crazy. This feeling was new for me, i never felt something like this before.

But still can't figure out what this is and when she entered.

Bella, the most beautiful girl in the whole school. She was our junior her class was next to ours. She was wholesome without any defect. Anyone would say that she is perfect without any second thought --- she has an innocent face, beautiful light brown eyes, long silky caramel hair, paper white skin and soft spoken, kind. Just who can't fall for her.

She often comes to our class with her friend Shara. Shara was the fox in the human body. She was cunning, mean rude and good at everything that is inhuman. She always puts an innocent face in front of everyone but stab in the back.

One day in the morning assembly we were in queue and it was not even a sunny day, just don't know how she felt dizzy and coincidentally she was beside Sage. She fell and just like the male protagonist he takes her in his arms. My blood was boiling at that moment and that sly Shara was shouting like Bella's soul left its body.

I never understand one thing in my life that girls are really that fragile and weak and if it's true then why am I not weak or am I not a girl.

After some days I was late for school so i ran and i just ate breakfast, hopefully i reached school on time.
At morning assembly i was feeling nauseous and just like Bella i also became the centre of attention but instead of dizziness and fall in the arm of a handsome guy, I vomited.

That was one of the most embarrassing moments of my life. That whole day Stella, Kevin and Sage keep asking me if I feel nauseous again or want to throw up and give me patient treatment. That was bad but the worst thing was that Felix and Arthur eat my brain by asking if I am pregnant.

I never liked that, Bella always comes into our class and talks to Sage like they were very close and he also treats nicely not the same as me though but I'm selfish i still don't like it, maybe i was afraid that he might fall for her. So i interrupt them whenever I get a chance.

Soon she comes up with a solution, whenever she spends time with Sage she sends Shara to distract me from disturbing them.

I was so angry that when I can't do anything, i blame Sage. 'how can he talk to some girl and what there's to talk about between them, can't he keep his distance, can't he just say please stay away from me i like Thea. Okay not this but he should at least keep some distance with her.'

To show my anger, i avoid him and stop talking to him except for work related things. He keeps asking me why I'm mad at him but i didn't say anything what should I say ' that i don't like when you talk to random girls and are possessive for you cause I'm feeling weird things for you that i also can't figure out.' of course i can't say this so i remain silent.

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