The second entry of my first love

9. reunion lll

"I don't care what opinion anyone has about me, i am not going to choose a stupid guy for myself." I said casually hiding my pain.

" Then do I have chance?" Nick asked confidently.

"Nick, i am not dumb like before, i have changed. So you really think I will make a flirt like you my boyfriend. I rather die single than choose you." I said with a sarcastic smile. It make others other especially Arthur and Felix laugh like maniacs.

"Thea. You are breaking my heart, my innocent heart.." he start whining but after few seconds he said with a grin "it's ok if you don't choose me. But I can't see you single. So how about my cousin Ulrike, he is nice, handsome, well settled and more nice than my brother."

As he finished Sage stand up and leave from there. Everyone was confused but Nick had a big satisfied smile on his face.

I turned to Nick and said "you don't have to play a matchmaker for me. Just worried about yourself, i am happy the way i am. My happiness is not depend on some guy."

after some time Sage came back with a poker face every one asked him if he's ok, i didn't say a word cause i don't care. Nick excuse himself and start to leave but stop in quit distance he turned around "Thea. Don't you dare leave again." Saying this he left.

"We won't let you leave again." Stella said after him hug me "and if you left this time. No matter even if you hide in hell, i will drag you out from there." Arthur continue to tease me.

Stella, Kevin, Felix and Arthur everyone start threatening me. ' i know you don't want me to leave again. But i am not sure if I am able to do it.' i looked at Sage who didn't say a word and was sitting expressionless.

'even as a friend he doesn't care if I stay or leave.. does he never even take me as a friend.. And why my heart is aching.... I..i want to go home... I want to just leave from here.' I feel uneasy and pain again erupting in my heart.

I started leaving the hall they all tried to stop me, please me except Sage. His silence and doesn't care attitude was cutting my heart layer by layer.

Even after their pleading I didn't agree cause i can't control myself for too long, i don't want to show them my hurt and vulnerable side.

They all come to the entrance to escort me out. Suddenly Sage spoke "i am also leaving. Let me drop you." He said with a sweet smile that increases the pain in my heart. I reject him right there "it's ok you don't have to trouble yourself i have already booked a cab." I said indeferently.

I didn't say bye just wave the back of my hand cause my emotions were already out of control.

My every emotion is clearly shown on my face and i never want them to see me like this. I can feel their gaze on me, i know they are upset i also want to hug them tightly and say "bye, see you tomorrow." But I can't.

I sat in the car and car start leaving. Leaving behind my friends, sweet memories, and my first love again after nine years.

The moment the car starts tears also starts falling from my eyes i couldn't help but cry silently. The pain was the same, the people were the same and the same me, even after nine years everything was the same.

'sometimes we want to run away from the person we have once loved the most.'

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