The second entry of my first love

12. past lll

To show my anger, i avoid him and stop talking to him except for work related things. He keeps asking me why I'm mad at him but i didn't say anything, what should I say ' that i don't like when you talk to random girls and are possessive for you cause I'm feeling weird things for you that i also can't figure out.' of course i can't say this so i remain silent.

In three days of silent treatment he asked me a thousand times what happens? Are you angry? Did I do something? Though he was worried, it  makes me happy to see that my silence really bothers him. So i decided to stop punishing him.

I was waiting for Sage to come to school, he was late and that is rare. I keep waiting but he didn't come. I was worried 'why didn't he come to school? He never takes leave then what happened today? Is he mad because i didn't talk to him and avoid him? '

The next day Felix came with a colourless face, he wasn't cheerful like always when we asked him what happened he said " Sage.... had an accident." My heart sank and that very moment, it took me a whole minute to process what Felix just said. Everything became blurry because of tears. I hold back every drop of tears, i don't want others to see it. I don't want to answer why I am crying for a guy when I do not even have a sensitive nature. But when Bella hears about it she cried like a widow who just lost her husband.

A whole week passed and he didn't come to school, i was worried sick about him. I don't talk much to anyone, didn't fight with Felix and Arthur even though they try to annoy me, ignore my brothers scheme to irritate me, didn't pay attention in class. They were all worried about me even my parents took care of me like i was going to die. I burst into tears whenever i was alone. I was totally lost my soul.

That was the longest week of my life and that week i figured out my feelings for him that was new for me. I had fallen for him, i love him. That weird feeling when he was around me, the possessiveness was all because i love him. Love him so much that the thought of being apart from him hurts like hell.

The next week i was entering the class with the same lost soul and i saw someone sitting on my desk he was talking to Felix and Arthur so i couldn't see his face. But him sitting on the Sage's seat was enough to enraged me. I was so angry that I was ready to beat that guy. As he turned around my all anger disappears it was Sage himself.

My happiness was indescribable when I saw him safe and sound without any bruises and with the same energy as before. I wanted to hug him tight and tell him how worried i was for him but i controlled myself cause i don't have the right to do so.

I was back to be myself bickering and fighting as before, like i have got my soul back. I wanted to tell him that i love him right there but seeing him after a whole week was enough for me.

We were having a good time together but it didn't last long. Bella came running to our class when she knew Sage is back, without wasting any second she hugged him like she had been longing for him for centuries. My friends and everyone in the class cooing over her and talking about how good they are looking together, a perfect couple. And it makes my blood boil.

Days went like before the thing has changed was that i figured out my feelings for him but didn't have the courage to confess and hid it inside myself.

We were at the school ground and everyone was busy playing. I spotted a blue butterfly on a flower plant, the butterfly's blue colour was sparkling under sunrays, it was a magnificent scene. I walk towards it slowly and quietly, so that it won't be scared and flew away. The moment I captured the butterfly in between my thumb and index finger gently, so that it won't hurt butterfly. A hand covered my hand which was holding the butterfly.

The hand that was holding my hand was warm and was holding gently the way i was holding the butterfly. I turned around to look who this hand belong to. My heart stopped beating seeing Sage, our face was just three inches away, his deep brown eyes were looking in mine that made me lose hold on butterfly and it flew away.

Few seconds have been passed but he didn't show any intention to back away and i can't look at those intense deep eyes any longer, so back off. I averted my gaze, i was all heated up  and left from there without saying anything.

After that incident i tried many times to tell him how i feel for him but always failed.

I was usually fighting with Felix and Arthur, Stella and Kevin were separating us when Sage entered the class holding Bella's hand. We all stop and looked at them in surprise and then he announce that he was dating Bella.

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