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Tell me, why are we wasting time on all your wasted crying

for this prompt:

"i'll never be what you truly want" with princess cake (can be implied brocedes etc)

Just because he and Nico are together, it doesn't mean that he doesn't see it.

He's not a complete idiot.

He's been one of the people who's been first hand viewer of those longing looks for years.

Which longing looks you ask?

Well, the longing looks between Nico and Lewis of course.

Especially those looks Nico sends Lewis' way when he thinks no one's watching.

He tells himself it's okay. It's him who's together with Nico, not Lewis.

But truth be told, sometimes those looks are really hard to deal with.

No one wants their partner to look at someone else. Especially not like that.

The only redeeming thing was that Nico and Lewis had a past together.

But--- that actually really didn't help to calm Jenson's mind.

At all.

It only made him wonder even more of what happened between these two.

It felt like they spent eternity together.

Seriously.... Something must have happened between them at one point, right?

Or maybe it was one of those 'what if' type of thing.....

That was even worse.

Because now they didn't know what it was like and they never would.

Knowing them----it probably was exactly that.

Jenson had stayed silent. Just let Nico watch Lewis with longing in his eyes.

In the end, he was the one who Nico called his partner.

Him. Jenson. Not Lewis.

That's what was important. Or at least that's what he told himself.

But sometimes... Sometimes he couldn't stop himself from being short with Nico.

Nico most of the time didn't even notice. Too wrapped up in his own head. His own bubble.

But this time he noticed Jenson's snappy, snarky remarks and asked him what was wrong.

Normally Jenson would answer with "nothing," or say he didn't sleep well or something like that.

But this time he couldn't do it.

"You were staring at him again."

"Huh? Staring at who?"

Jenson closed his eyes for a second, willing himself to have some strength.

"Oh come on, Nico."

"I literally have no idea who or what you're talking about."

"Lewis!" He snapped and saw Nico recoil from him a little. "I'm talking about Lewis! Don't play dumb with me."

Nico looked away. Jenson knew he got him trapped in a corner now.

How was he gonna talk himself out of this one?

Or was he gonna lie?

"I don't---" lie it was then. "I don't know why I was looking at him." or not. Not a complete lie anyway. He probably really didn't know why he was looking at Lewis.

Or the way how.

"I'll never be what you really want."

It was painful. And even painful was an understatement.

But he's learned to live with that. As ridiculous as it sounds.

"Jense---"

"It's okay ," but the smile he tries to put on his face doesn't reach his eyes at all. "I still have part of you. That's enough."

It's not okay.

But he can pretend that it is.