Kazuku Uraraka

The Burden Of Titles

Deku looked at Ochako with a sigh, he loved her so much, so it was hard to reconcile, the pain he felt when he looked at her. His eyes rested on hers, but quickly darted to his toes. 
"Who else knew?" 

"Katsuki. He came here on a mission, stopped by to ask about the agency's services, Kaz heard Dynamite was there and.. I couldn't tell him he couldn't meet him. Katsuki took one look at him, and came to ask me what was going on. I told him he wasn't your kid, but he called me a lying bitch, so I told him that you wanted to wait until things calmed down to be with us." 

Deku felt tears streak his face, so his oldest friend, the person who knew him best, believed he would just get Ochako pregnant and abandon her and his child in a different city. With an empty promise. Just going to get some milk. 

"Tsu knows I have a kid, but she never met him. So she thinks he has a different dad.. Denki and Jiro too." 
"How did this not get out? Every time anyone I've been near gets pregnant people ask me about it! How did-" 
"I've been going by a different name. People don't recognize me out of uniform, especially since I grew my hair out." 

Deku sighed "he looks just like me.." 

"He does, and people do tell me that! But Deku doesn't live in Kyoto and, I'm not a pro hero. I'm a counsellor. One of my coworkers has thought Kaz was yours for a long time, but.. everyone else thinks he's insane. He'll be very happy when this breaks." 
Deku nodded "I imagine." He sighed, "I can't believe you did this Uraraka. I-I really can't process that the person I loved so much, my favorite person, did this to me." 

Ochako sighed "You didn't know me that well Dekukun." 
"Clearly." He whimpered, but that couldn't be true, could it? He had loved her for so long. He knew she loved mochi, but most people knew that. He knew about her struggle with poverty and how family oriented she was.. But he supposed most of Japan knew that. And Kaz was her family, Deku wasn't. Of course she put protecting her baby over his feelings.. It just hurt that she felt the need to protect their child from him. 

"Why did you do it? Was it really only my title you were protecting him from or is there something about me that makes you think I-I'm unfit to be in his life?"

"Do you remember the conversation we had our third year?" 
It took all Deku had to swallow the anger that came when Ochako asked him that "Something I said when I was 18 made you decide to cut me from my son's life?"

"You said you didn't want kids. You said it would be wrong for you to prioritize anyone. You weren't sure if you could have a family, because you weren't sure if you could love your child more than you loved the child of a stranger. It scared the hell out of me!" 

"I was a kid. Ochako. I-I was still figuring the hero thing out! I wasn't sure, morally if I could have a kid. But if you told me you were pregnant, I would have been here in two hours! I-" 
"I couldn't risk you coming in and out of his life! Coming and trying for a while and only to leave once he came to love you, once the world needed saving again, or once you got someone you liked more pregnant. I couldn't accept that something might happen to him and I would reach for you, only to realize I was the only one grieving!" 

Deku sighed "You really think I'm a villain, huh?" 

"No. I don't I just-" 
"You think I am incapable of loving anyone! Or even caring about anyone!" 
"I think you love everyone so much, how could you make room for anyone to be a priority? And you think the same thing you said it yourself!" 

Deku glared at her but shook his head, he didn't know what to say to her. She had ripped his heart out, but he supposed he had asked her to. 

"That's not what I said!" He huffed, looking at the ground with a sigh. "Not what I meant anyways. I-I meant if I had a child. It would make it harder to be a hero, because I would love them so much, I wouldn't be able to see past them. I knew I would love my child and I knew I already loved you!" he whimpered, crying into his hands. 

Ochako looked at him sadly, "But you left me." 
"I wanted to protect you.. I tried to correct it the morning after Kaz was conceived, but you ran away from me!" he whimpered "I called you to my room because I wanted to spend my last night alive with you, and you ran away from me!" 
"You are rewriting history to make yourself feel better! You called me to your room to get laid!" 
Deku glared at her "How? How can you think that about me? I don't just fuck anyone. My body count is one!" 

"That can't be true!" 
"It is! But I can't force you to believe me!" Deku whimpered 

"If it wasn't about getting laid, than why did you-" 
"Because you were beautiful and I wanted to and I thought you wanted to! I enjoyed the sex, but I didn't only enjoy the sex! I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry I made you feel used, but I didn't use you!" 

Ochako nodded sadly, maybe she had used him.. She didn't remember. She had loved him, for so long.. But he had always seemed so unobtainable, and she had been busy chasing a ghost. A ghost of a girl she had barely known. She looked at him sadly 

"I'm sorry too, Deku." 
He sighed, nodding his head sadly "I love you." 

"I need more time." 
Deku nodded, "I didn't say it to hear it back." He sighed, holding his arms out, relief coming as she hugged him. They sat on the floor and cried together. After a while, Deku looked at her with a slight smile. 

"You know.. I've thought about what a kid we had would be like."
Ochako blushed "You said that the night we conceived, actually. Said it was the result of boredom." 

"Well.. You know. Boredom. Loneliness. Love." He looked at her sadly, "I'm sorry I messed up the first time, but.. I'm going to hold onto you this time." 

Deku looked at her, he wanted to kiss her, but he wasn't sure if it was appropriate, he stood up with a sigh, Ochako got up and made tea for their throats. Deku smiled at her softly, going and sitting at the table with a sigh 
"When does Kaz usually wake up?" 

"He usually wakes up after a couple of hours." 

Deku nodded, sipping his tea with a sigh, "I should have called you."

"I don't know if I would have answered. I would have had to explain." 

Deku nodded sadly "I suppose that's true. Can I see where you work?" 
"If you want.. We can stop by tomorrow." 
Deku nodded his head, "Thank you." 

"My coworkers are going to freak out." 
"Oh I can imagine." Deku smirked, he kind of liked it when people got excited to see him though..  
"My place in Musutafu, it's big enough for you and Kaz. Not saying you have to, but.. there's room." 
"Thank you. I.. I like I said, I may not have a choice. My cover is blown. Once you're seen holding my kid, everyone is going to know who I am, and who Kaz is." 

Deku nodded "Well, you're both more than welcome." he murmured

"Thank you." 
Deku nodded, cocking his head to the side "why did you name him after me?" 

"Why wouldn't I name him after my hero?" 
"I'm your hero?" 
"Of course you are.."
"But everything you just said.." 

"Doesn't mean I don't admire you. I even think I love you, I just.. I don't want to say it until I'm sure. Not again." 
Deku nodded "May I kiss you?" 

Ochako nodded and Deku came, kissing her softly, pulling her leg to wrap it around him. Ochako laughed and kissed him back. Deku smiled at her

"I've wanted to do that for so long." 
"Me too." She admitted

Deku smiled at her and kissed her forehead, letting go of her leg. He supposed they would wake Kaz if they did much more, and he probably shouldn't act on any more of his urges right after the fight they just had and with their son asleep in the house. Even if he hadn't had sex in close to four years. 

Ochako smiled at him softly 

"What do you want for dinner?" 
"Oh Kaz's favorite will be fine." 
Ochako nodded, "Alright." 
Deku kissed her cheek gently 
"What is his favorite food?" 
"Right now he mostly just eats fried rice." 
"That sounds good."