Forever Mine {BOOK 4}

Chapter Two

SEVEN YEARS EARLIER

I woke up to a very disturbing nightmare of Moon, and it has been fearing me for months that I sometimes don't even sleep. I woke up, gasping for air as if there was a huge lump in my throat that I couldn't get rid of. I started crying out for mercy and help while I was wrapped in Christopher's arms.

I felt like I couldn't breathe or move. It was like I was paralyzed in the bed right with him. My groaning and cries were able to wake Christopher up enough to know something was wrong. And he had helped me sit up, and suddenly I gathered strength of my body to jerk awake. And I had leaned forward and he had embraced me, holding me tightly as he tried everything to comfort me.

I had every intention of just doing the best I could to try to breathe. Christopher reached over and he gave me the glass of water that was by my side of the bed. And I put the glass to my lips and I swallowed. I swallowed a big amount of water down my throat, gulping. And then I was finally able to breathe. And I did.

"Are you alright?" Christopher asked, as he started to rub my back, comforting me as well as he has been since these nightmares.

"Yeah, I'm sorry. I just had a really bad nightmare. I literally cannot decipher it." I said to him, and then I gulped some more water down my throat.

"Was it Moon again? What happened in this nightmare this time?" He asked me, politely and kind.

I stopped to think about it. And what I thought about was losing him on the day we get married. Yeah, sure I have him. But I'm afraid Moon will destroy everyone in my life. My dad is already gone. My mom and Christopher are left. And so are my friends.

I know the police are looking for Moon. It's been three months. And still, Moon is not anywhere to be seen. Yeah, I did shoot her that night that Ted abducted me. But it doesn't mean she's not alive. She could've survived that gunshot. And everyone keeps saying that Moon is gone and that I have nothing to worry about. But I certainly don't believe that.

"It's been the same dream over and over again. And I'm terrified." I said to him, looking right at him as he sat next to me by my side in the bed.

"Emma, there's nothing to worry about. Have I ever been wrong? Moon is gone. I think if she wanted to do anything to us she would've done it by now." He replied.

He's right, but a part of me doesn't believe that. Moon is a mastermind. She will find anything to try to taunt and destroy me forever. She will take whatever she desires. It doesn't matter how or when. But she will take it. And I fear that it will be my mother, Gavin, Colleen, Hallie, Victoria, Logan, Ty, Lara Jean or Christopher. Those are the people who will most likely be hurt from Moon doing something crazy. And it terrifies me everyday. Every morning.

    Sometimes when I wake up in the morning I have this feeling of anxiety and panic. The room is not still. It feels like I'm having some sort of motion sickness. And I have to breathe my way to get control of my breathing. It's so hard as it is. I don't wish to wake up and fear my future. I don't want to lose the people. It's the biggest thing I'm absolutely terrified of. I see the mornings fly by everyday and I'm still stuck in wonder about tomorrow, next week, next month, next year. I always wonder and still my mind is racing like running fast on a treadmill.

   "You can't know that. That's impossible and you know it." I softly replied, it was soft as a whisper, just enough for him to hear me.

   "Emma, you are safe. We're safe. But you're right, I can't guarantee anything. But I do know I have our gun under our bed in the safe. The house alarm is on and armed. There's security cameras on. If Moon tried getting in, I would have the cops on speed dial. So trust me when I say we're safe here. You and me." He said, and he pulled me closer into him and he kissed my forehead, and we went into a long embrace where he had held me.