Deception [Vhope/ Taeseok]

32. Taehyung

..................•Eight years later•.....................

"Daddy?"

I turned to the owner of the voice who just called me. Without a smile or any other emotions, i faced the boy who had just entered my office at home..

"Is there a problem?"

I responded without any joy or happiness like other father.. Everytime i would see Namjoon very happy with his children and i would still admire him even though i have a son.... I noticed his sudden change of emotions, a sign that he was scared of my presence or maybe voice.

Yes, i didn't divorce his mother eight years ago because of him and in that process i lost the woman i love.. I lost the love of my life.. I do give him everything he needs as my son.. But there is only one thing i can not fully give to him.. And that is love, nothing really.. I can not really love my son, and i don't know why It's been eight years but i also seem to have lost my heart.. It feels like my heart also died with her in the fire..

Yes, everything become clear to me.. Especially my feelings for Hobie.. It's indeed true; you can only realize the value of a person after you lost them in your life..... And losing Hobie in that gallery fire really hits me hard.. After seeing how she turned into ashes, i lost it.. I lost my soul.

I regretted everything just like Jackson had warned me.. If only i can return time back to that time when she needed me most and i went to hug a wrong person.. If only i hadn't watch her leave like that... I was so blinded and i thought it was just lust, but shit! I had already fallen in love with her and didn't realize it..

The several time sèx.. The late night talk and most of all the longing for her. It wasn't just sèx or lust at all, but love.. The way she made me feel , the way i was so addicted to her touch, her kisses and the way we would fück without getting tired of each other.... It wasn't just fücking at all, but making love.. But she left me all alone.. She is not anywhere around in this world and she will never return into my embrace no matter how much i would have wanted it.

Damn! I was blinded with being Kim industry's heir because of my father's conditions that made me marry a wrong woman and in that process i met the love of my life and lost her in the same process... Yes i hate my parents and Yong but i even hate myself so much that i don't care about my life anymore... I'm stuck in this marriage because of my son, even though i have no enough love for him. I still want to do my duty as a responsible father.

For the past eight years, we have never had sex.. I don't have any desire to have sex with Yong let alone kiss or hold her. She would force herself on me, putting her body on display but i wouldn't fall for it.. And she would try to tricky me when I'm drunk but if i start to do it with her, i would see my Hobie and stop everything immediately.

I suspect she might have something to do with Hobie's gallery catching fire.. There was a body of a woman but i still want to believe that it was not her.. I still want to hope that it's not her even after the DNA test of the body came saying that it's indeed her.. If i had gone to look for her, maybe she would still be alive and we would be happy together.... I was ready to leave everything behind and go with her, but when i reached at her gallery, only fire welcomed me.

From that day, i swear never to touch Yong again.. I have asked for a divorce several time and even sign on them my signature but my father would talk to people who works with marriage issues not to proceed my divorce papers just because Yong is his friend's child.. We all shamelessly buried Hobie yet we're also the one who drove her to her early grave.. And for that, i hate everyone including myself.