Byakko's Diary | AkuAtsu

Cp.2 | Day 002

Dear moon,

I'm screwed up!

I know if my master knows about my existence within him, he will be terrified because, all these years, in my eyes, Atsushi is still a small, kind, and docile master who is not fully ready to accept me within him.

And, since he's turning 18, I think he's quite big and brave enough to accept my existence, and with that, I was careless about how I wander around the city at midnight to hunt some food for us when I'm in my fully tiger form and it's Atsushi's turn to be within me, without being conscious, of course.

But I never knew that he was so scared of me to the point that just hearing my name or seeing a glimpse of my shadow, he'd try to flee anywhere he could as fast as possible.

He notices my existence already. Always with him. And especially these two weeks after we arrived at these cities—4 days to be specific—along with the incident at the river where Atsushi countless times wanted to rob someone, but his kindness and scaredy cat behavior forbid him.

That's why I did all those things at night.

But he caught me, noticing that I was always looking at him all these times. I mean, that time there's a mirror on the street and you (the moon) were fully bright too, so I want to change immediately with Atsushi. But he saw it in the street mirror, and that's what triggered his fear the most.

He believes I'm going to eat him because of what I did to the other residents in the orphanage and their field. He really is terrified of me! But, terrified and hate are two different things, right? I hope my master won't hate me. I know he will overcome his fear of me like he overcame his scary and abusive life as an orphanage.

Yes, that's it. My master surely will not hate me.

Or, at least that's what I want to believe...

🐾Byakko