My Boyfriend's Dad

A Fairytale

My boyfriend Hector and I have been dating for a while now, by a while I mean for a whole 2 year, and I can't lie, this has been the most romantic relationship I've ever been through, and I love every single moment we have together, he is the most thoughtful person I've ever met, he always makes me feel loved and appreciated, it's like I'm living a dream, and to be honest, I don't want to wake up, I'm not a fan of anything, but I really like the idea of being appreciated, and Hector always found a way to make me feel special, say what ever y'all want but a bitch never feels right like this, and am loving it.

          Even though we only dated for about two years, I've already planned out each of our anniversary celebrations. To be honest, it sounds childish, but I don't care; this is my first serious relationship, and I want to make it as memorable as possible. Right now, him and I are talking about what we need to do for our upcoming anniversary. For each anniversary, we create a list of things we need to do as memories in case we end up having little ones.

         My parents were married very young, and they didn't have that much memories of each other, because they didn't expect a tragic moment to happen, but sometimes life has a different plan for us, and we just have to live with it, my mother died tragically when I was around 5 years old, and all I have as a memory of her is a little picture of her holding me when I was born, my parents didn't believe on making memories like I do, so for me I make sure that I make as much memories I can, incase Hector ever needed a picture or a souvenir of me or us to show them, I wouldn't be able to live with myself if my kids have meet my fate.

I miss her terribly, mostly because of my father, he has been raising me since her death, he barely has any social interaction because he doesn't have any strength to do so, he is afraid of facing that situation again, I want him to be happy, I want him to move on, and I know my mother will be happy for us, but I never experienced that kind of pain, so I don't know how he truly feels, but as his daughter, I want to see my dad happy for once, now that I have this kind of emotion and understanding of love I don't want him to waste of his life not felling or sharing his feelings towards someone else, he deserves it, I just wan him to deserve it for himself as well, because I want to see him smile genuinely, not for me only but for someone who truly loves him as well.

      Hector is at work, I am at my University studying for a coming exam, he told me he has something very important to tell me, even though we have already celebrated our anniversary, he says he has another surprise for us as well, and to be honest, I am very curious about it all, I really like Hector and I'm scared that he might not be feeling the same way about me anymore, I am truly clingy, and that is something most of my ex reproach me for, and lately he has been coming home late, and I am very pre minded that he have found someone else.
     
My closest friend advised me not to worry, but I can't help it. Whenever I think good things are going to happen to me, they suddenly turn bad. My feelings for Hector are intense, and I can already picture us being together for a very long time. This is my first real date, first relationship, and first kiss, but with him it's the most intimate thing I've ever experienced because he makes me feel special and takes care of me. After all, showing someone you care about them is even more intimate than having sex.

Not that am complaining about sex, I am a really sexual person, I love sex very much, if it was possible I would have sex almost every day, but Hector is not a fucking type a person, he love pouring out his heart with it, but sometimes I wish that he could you know be a little more aggressive with me sexually, when he crosses that line sometimes he act weird about it, so we don't get to do it often, and what worse it the facts that I know he can be, he worries that he might go through with it and lost himself, but am a big girl, I can handle it.

        And that has been going through my head like crazy, what if I push my baby too hard now he doesn't want anything to do with me, what if I lost him before I even have the time to confess my undying affection for him, Hector is the closest person after my best friend, he hold me down at my worst, he never left me when I am at my lowest, he hold my hands and guide me back toward my home, he completes me completely, I don't usually care about fairy tales, but I know for sure that that this is mine, and I am scared of loosing it, I don't want to be like my father broken with no one to help me fix my broken soul.