My Boyfriend's Dad

A Decision 2

            Oh man, the sun is shining so brightly, by brightly, I mean straight at my face, I try to move my body but a heavy object is holding me back down, anxiety consumes me, and I start to panic, where the hell am I, but memories of last night flooded my mind and my face heat up, OMG I can't believe I tried anal and liked it very much to the point of blacking out, I turn to look at Hector sleeping peacefully, while his hand is still holding me toward him, his face looks so innocent,and peaceful, who would have thought my innocence boyfriend was so freaky, my eyes lit up at the thought and so many ideas started to stir up on my mind, I love what we did yesterday, I still feel him there and I like it too much, it make my body tingling with pleasure, I so badly want to stick up a finger in there and find my release, but with the line we crossed last night, it will feel kind of weird to start masturbating, especially with what happened last night,I push my body deeper into Hector's body, attempting to conceal my face from the sun and sleep in a little longer. My body feels better, but all I want is to lie close to my baby for a little longer.

       I don't know how long I slept because when I finally woke up without the sun on my eyes, the room was a little shadowy and silent, I finally could feel my legs, and decided to take a warm bath, I took one of Hector's long white shirt and walk downstairs, I am very hungry, even though my body is still a little sore, but I feel so much alive, stress gone, that what happened when you date with a man who knows how to use what he was blessed with, I enter the kitchen and uncover a letter. "Sorry my love, I have to go do something at work, I will be back around 2 PM ish, I made you some breakfast, eat it and relax yourself, I know you have a lot you want to ask me, I be ready to answer it all, have a nice day, Love Hector." I smile at the note and eat my breakfast, I clean up, do some assignments, and watch a movie or two, I feel really happy here, and a part of me starts to hate what I said earlier, I want to stay here and wake up every single day to this beautiful sight, his house is so beautiful, the ocean view is also a beauty, I could already picture our little family being in this place, it fit perfectly to me, I always wanted a little family on my own, and being here made me realize just how much I love this idea so much, I feel a real connection with Hector, his desires for me are well written for us clearly to understand, and a part of me will be heartbroken if I don't truly give us a chance to see where we could lead this beautiful relationship.

I know we have a lot on our plates, but that's what partners are for: to lean in to each other and help us grow, and Hector has never made me feel less than who I am, and I know that being here will be the most important part of this relationship; if I truly want Hector to believe in me, I want him to know that I've decided we'll be roommates, and I can't wait to see his reaction.

The moment Hector walks into the room, I was already too excited for him to be here, he walks straight towards me and kisses me passionately, I hold on to this moment as long as I can, and I pull away and go microwave his dinners, I order, I am not a good cook, and I want him to stay alive at this point in my life, I am already taking cooking classes, I mean, if one day he decides to propose, he can't live on takeout, I need to be able to cook him what he deserves, while his food is letting some steam out, we chat about what was going on, the incident that happened last night, he was so shocked and scared, and I could still feel the worries on his eyes till now, but I am a big girl, I can handle it, as we were talking, he start eating and drinking, and I feel like the silence grows thicker, making me feel so scared, I don't want to look like a fool, and I don't want to scare him again.

            I take some of his chicken wings and start to eat it, and I start mumbling out the words, something I do when I am afraid, and as the caring man that he is, he pulls the chicken out of my mouth and stared at me, waiting for me to fully repeat what I was mumbling about, I take a deep breath and at one breath spill out all that was on my mind to him, my words caught him off guard, but the smile that was on his face, made me realize that I had made the right decision.

              He moved the food closer to the right side of the table and pulled me closer to him, I feel at ease, his kiss feels so hot on my forehead, maybe it's the chicken hot sauce or maybe it's the love that we feel for each other vibrating towards us, I can't lie and say I'm not afraid, I am, but I'm ready to face it all, behind every thunder, it rains, and at last a beautiful rainbow is created, I know that our relationship will face so many obstacles,but as long I have him by my side I will be strong to face it all, trust is the keys to a strong partnership, and as long I know Hector lying is not his habitat, and one thing I for certain understand is that a rightful men's is worth a thousand other man's that will come my way, I have my mister imperfect and with my imperfect self we are the perfect partner, regardless of what others might agree or disagree being this intimate to someone that deep is the most precious thing to be able to witness a moment on your life, true love is a fairytale description, but a commitment is the key to someone heart.

As long as I stay strong and faithful to my man what will happen, and the way I am deeply devoted to him, baby I will never go away, a bitch could try but a woman doesn't have to do anything, my heart is key to my happiness, and Hector hold it deeply, I don't plan on moving from him, wherever he goes, I fallow with no excitation, I may not know what our future holds for us but I am done running away from him, he make feel safe and secure, I have no worries about anything, because no one ever love me the way he does.

And that is my devotion to him, is to always make him part of my decisions, he is here to stay, and I am no longer afraid of my past, my old self shouldn't be part of my life, she was weak and fragile but being with Hector make me feel stronger and bolder, I don't want to end up like my parents, a tragic loss, I want to take the risk even if it mean die trying, My Father always told me, when you stay so far away from reality, it became the shadow of yourself, fight for what yours, before it became your wrongdoing, I miss my dad so much, but I know that seeing me happy will bring him more joy than sadness, he always say that I am my mother daughter, stubborn but strong, and right now, at this moment laying on my man eating and laughing, I don't want this feeling to ever disappear, I made the right decision because I know that I have the right person to cherish with.