My Boyfriend's Dad

A Happiness

It has been two years since I have been living with Hector, and it has been the most beautiful moment of my life. We spent Thanksgiving and Christmas together with his mother and my father, and I even have a good connection with his mother, she is super sweet, she started to treat me with affection and care, she even cried at my graduation, and with her influences, she helped me find a good job. I mean, I do have a diplomatic degree in Psychology, but most of the clients that I work with are people that were recommended by her, his dad even sent his regards to me when I graduated, we talk through FaceTime each occasion, he is really nice guy, my dad even started dating, going out, enjoying his free time with us, I feel so blessed, my best friends even said that she has a feeling that Hector might be proposing, it will be nice but I don't want to dwell on it because if it means happens, It will, so for the time being, I am fully satisfied with what I have and grateful for all of my successes. I have a family who loves and proud of me, as well as a partner who will go at any length for me; what more could I want?

              Today, I only have one client, Mr.Edward, a sweet loving man who is always here at the therapy session with his son, trying to rebuild their lost connection. I truly feel sorry for him, because sometimes you end up marrying your worst enemy. As a family therapist, I try to help broken families as much as I can, but sometimes it is their own responsibility to make sure it stays impactful, but Mr. Ed is different, that man's whole family is built on lies, broken by his wife affairs, for the sake of his son, he put the blame on himself and lives with that burden for decades, and now the truth is out, he is still trying to make sure his ex wife and his son relationship stay together, but when Karma hit, believe me, the destruction is unreal, and today, as always, he is here with his son trying to shield her from her wrath, can you believe it, my heart hurts for him, but I can't push his son to just accept her back.

             When she didn't have no mercy for Edward when their son was being harsh towards him, he missed so much from his son's growing and for what just for her to be sexually abused by her lover, and even with all this bullshit, he still want her back in his life, trying to keep her from being harmed, his love for her is still strong, and the more she came here, the more she looked broken, I want to pity her, but what did she expect from him, to just embrace her and say I love you mommy and hug it out, but as time passes, I feel like their therapy sessions are becoming more and more painful, but they are learning more about each other, and the mother is getting more help and understanding from her mistakes, so I just hope they get to be the best version of themselves and, at the very least, a good family.

      After that, I plan on going home and cook, yes you heard me right cook, I am not a professional cooker, but I can do a little something, I plan on making some fried fish and fries, with a little pasta and some salad, there is a market right close to my work place, I decided to go there buy some groceries and the rest of the stuff that I will be needing to cook, and catch the two trains home, my work is not far from my house, so I don't see the point of driving around every day, I already clean up the house, all I need is to cook and pick up some movies, we do movies times every week Thursdays, we talk about things that are going on with us, our jobs and family issues, Hector is not that happy that his mother is dating now, he always complains about it to me, I always laughed about it, but I don't think he finds it funny, me and his mother talk about everything so she knows how he feels about it.

              But she is a grown woman with needs, but that is something I know Hector will not like to hear. As I arrived home, I could hear Hector talking with Sebastian, my best friends find him attractive, but from what Hector has told me, he doesn't think Sebastian even wants a relationship, and there is no way I would allow my bestie's feelings to be hurt. I dropped the bags within the kitchen counter and headed towards them. Sebastian's eyes display no emotions when he stares at me, at first I would have been terrified, but now I am so used to his attitude that it becomes a greeting from him, I just wave at him and kiss Hector.

            I told him about our plans for today in case he forgot, but he already was ahead of me, I walk toward our room, to change and start cooking, while I was preparing the meal, Hector come around and start helping me out, his really good at cooking pasta's, when I ask him if Sebastian is staying over, he told me while I was upstairs he had already left, we cooked and talked for a good hour, we put the food at the corner of the living room, it a space we built to make our picnic area. We make it as comfortable and enjoyable as possible, and with everything in place, we are ready to begin our sweet moments; the food smells delicious and fresh, and my favorite movie, The Notebook, is about to begin; with a happy smile, I lean towards Hector and kiss him, and with my head on his shoulder, we begin our day together.

Being with him for the last four years has been the most amazing journey of my life; I have never felt so loved and appreciated by someone other than my father or best friends; he was always there when I needed him to be; he always had my back. As I lay here with him, watching the Notebook for the millionth time, I begin to understand why he didn't want his wife to forget about him and his dedication to repeating the same story over and over again in the hopes that one day she will remember that those two people in the story are them; I don't want that kind of love, but I do want a dedication romance, because nothing can compare to someone who cherishes you in your worst time; when I met Hector, I gave up on finding true happiness, but he never stopped teaching me about happiness, and the more I started to love myself like he teaches me, the more I love who I have become; I am not my mother; I am me, a broken vase that is gluing herself pieces by pieces, and Hector is the glue that keeps me from falling apart; he gives me more than I can bear, but he also gives me the strength to keep going, which is something worth maintaining.

            I feel happy, something I haven't felt in a while, thanks to a man who sees the broken deranged hearted girl, I wanted so much and he lays it all down for me, all he ever wanted was my dedication to him, and that is all that I try to do, I still don't know what our future holds for us, especially me, but for the first time in my life, I've been in a relationship that long, I want it to last forever, I want him to keep me forever,because my heart is already in the palm of his hands, I only hope that he doesn't break me. I've been shattered before, but the way that Hector has been cherishing me, if he breaks me, I know that I won't ever be normal again. I turn to look at him, smiling at the movies, and for the first time in my life, I let a words echo through my mind, "Please Lord, let him marry me." I know it sounds crazy, but I hope in the back of his mind, he does have a plan for it for us, because I could already picture me walking towards him, with a smile on my face, because the happiness he brings me, I wanted it to endure a lifetime.