FFXIV Write 2024

8 - Needs

[extra-credit word, courtesy of randomword.com]

There are few things that Husband and I truly need. We need food, but we brought a lot of food from Eorzea, and hunting and gathering are both easy enough that we can always make more. We need rest, but we now are allowed to stay in the Hartmans' home, and we also now have a tent we can use.

We need tools and clothing, but, again, these are things we can make, even if Husband calls our hempen clothing "hippiesque." As we get money from the food we sell we can buy more common clothing, or write recipes for clothing like what others wear...Husband said he found where cotton grows, and leather can be made from cow skin.

Between our gathering skills and our crafting skills and our fighting skills, there is very little that we need that we cannot find a way to have. We were adventurers in Eorzea, after all. Even if we no longer have dungeons to scavenge for gear, we can quite easily make do.

So, in all this world, the only things we truly need are each other.

Though I say that now, and I wonder...do I truly need Husband?

I want him. I want his company and his smile and his jokes, even if I do not always understand them. If we ever truly need to battle something here, I would want him at my side. I want him at night to put my arms around. I want his arms around me.

He is useful. He is smart, and he is skilled; we can make things together better and more easily than alone. He knows this world better than I, though I learn of it with google and wikipedia. He knows what to say to people when I do not. He knows, or thinks he knows, what will and will not confuse and upset hyur.

We promised ourselves to each other at the Sanctum of the Twelve. We said we would be with each other, care for each other, love and protect each other. I think that is not a promise either of us would willingly break.

But do I truly need him? For all that I want him, could I live in this world without him? A world where nothing can truly hurt me, where I am alive and strong and capable?

Husband came into our workshop and asked if I was busy.

"Do you need me, Husband?"

"Always, my love."

He was leaving to gather maple for the furniture we are making for the bar. He could have done it alone, but he wanted my company. I decided I wanted his too and went with him.

I suppose I do not know if I absolutely need him. But I do know I do not want to be without him.