Cycle of Seasons

Winter. Autumn?

I'm hanging out with Freya, we both really needed a break from the others. No offense, we love them. But i really can't deal with their shit, especially now that my mood swings are getting worse. I don't know why, but all of a sudden, i'm filled with anger. The smallest things anger me. I don't know why i'm so angry. I used to hate it when my father was mad for no reason, yelling at us for "getting in his way", and now. I am just like him. I feel bad for my friends, they never signed up for this shit. I'm angry with them over the smallest things. Except for Sofie and Freya. They never angered me before. Maybe it's because they don't try to understand me and try to be there for me. I know Ethan, Lacy and Mavis want what's best for me, but i hate it when they act like they know or understand what i'm going through. They don't. I love them. But i've been so drained lately. I don't know how they expect me to do this shit, im shit fazed all the time. Not from booze, or weed, or shit like that. I barely sleep, i go from addiction to addiction to fill the void that's swallowing me from inside of my body. But no one notices. Of course. I'm the middle child. The good kid, even after they found out about all of the shit i went through, they just pretended it wasn't there, just like they did with me all my life. Whatever. This is what me and Freya do. We bitch about our shit, and don't mention it again. Well until something triggers the topic, then we spend hours bitching about it again. Whatever, am i right?