The Light within Darkness

Chapter -10

Bjorn

"This wealth, this position, the glory none of it would matter because you won't have the one thing, the one thing your soul will ever want. The only thing that will ever matter to you but you can't have it. At least not in this life".

Years went by since that unforgettable night, yet time and time again her words still echo in the back of my mind. I pondered about it for a very long time. I even went back to that witch for answers but she disappeared like everything she said was a figment of my imagination. I never saw her again.

But her rough voice always find a way to creep back into my mind. What is it that my heart desires? Why am I not satisfied? Even when I conquered the whole north it wasn't enough, when I challenged the Royals it wasn't enough or when I married Celestina it still wasn't enough. Why its never enough? What does my heart desire?

My eyes flick towards my beautiful sleeping mate on the bed. I can finally see it now what that witch was trying to tell me years ago. Words can't describe what I feel in this moment as if a heavy weight has been lifted off of my shoulders and I can finally breath again. I feel so much lighter now. They're not enough words in this world to describe what I feel inside. Everything is foggy right now and I'm waiting for the fog to clear only to realize that everything was just a figment of my imagination.

I can't take my eyes off of her she'll disappear if I do. My hands are shaking but so does my body, the proximity is killing me. I can't distinguish between dream and reality as if I'm still under influence of drugs and wolfsbane. 

Drugs... they were the only thing that got me through it all. I don't even remember half of the years after she left. All I could remember is the unbearable amount of pain. I thought I knew pain but that was nothing compared to the pain that she left behind. I don't want to go through it all ever again. I have tried every drug known on this planet to get her out of my mind but they only gave me a moment of happiness and a lifetime of pain and suffering. 

My eyes flick towards the door before returning back to her. I rise up from the armchair and walk silently towards the bed without disturbing her even though I know she won't wake up for at least for few hours. I leaned towards her, my body couldn't resist anymore. I've spend hours trying to memorize every little detail about her. She will never leave me again I will make sure of it by any means necessary. We will be together for eternity in every sense that is possible. 

I caressed her cheek with my thumb than her neck till I reached my claim. I always been possessive of her even when I hated her very existence but that was a child's play in comparison to what I feel right now. My wild rumbles with appreciation he likes the claim we put on her. It's big, shows exactly how powerful the claim is, the bite of an Alpha. I should have done that years ago, I can't even remember how I resisted that for years, it was utterly exhausting but now I feel strangely liberated.

For the first time in a very long time my wild and me are completely aligned. Our mind is one and completely focused on our ultimate goal. No fight, no aggression but a serene calmness.

My wild is completely detached from my body now. To him nothing else matters in this world not this throne, not the pack but only her. A Wolf lives only for their mate but mine hated his, an anomaly in this cut throat world. At one point we wanted her dead, out of our lives so we can heal and move on and we got just that. 

I thought I was lucky enough to escape this tiresome bond that was like a noose around my neck. Except it wasn't how I imagined it would be, the silence of the bond, the constant fear of not knowing where she was or if she was even alive drove me and my wolf absolutely crazy. I never knew how much I craved that constant humming of the bond that felt like a draft of cold wind on a hot tiresome day.