Do you really see me?

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Waking up the next morning, I didn't have the urge to sob, so immediately it was gonna be a better day.!!

I looked to my left and noticed my son was still sleeping so I swiftly got out of bed in order not to disturb his peaceful slumber. I left the room to go make myself some breakfast after setting up the baby monitor first, of course.

Settling on making myself some eggs, I gathered the ingredients and prepped myself an omelet. Once it was finished, I plated it, and made my way to the living room. I plopped on the couch and turned on the TV, flipping through channels until I found some old cartoons I used to watch. I refused to let my mind think of my upcoming Therapy appointment. I knew I was going to stress myself out if I did, so instead, I laughed along to whatever silly stunt happened.

A while after I finished eating and I had been watching a new show for a bit, I decided to check on my son. So I got up and discarded my trash, and put the dirty dishes in the dish washer. I then made my way to my room and surprisingly saw my son was awake.

"You're so cute," I cooed at my little cutey, "you know you can tell eomma that you're awake."

He smiled upon my arrival as if he knew what I was saying. I scooped him up as I sat down on the bed, and he clung to my shirt immediately. He stared up at me curiosity emerging in his big eyes. I asked him what was going on. He made a face of discomfort and then leaned his head on my chest.

Being a little more prepared this time around, I got off the bed and headed for his diaper bag. I swiftly crouched down and rummaged through the bag before I found one of his teething toys.

"For you," I said sweetly.

He picked his head up and reached for the toy. He immediately inserted it into his mouth and gnawed on it.

I again smiled at him. I then sat back down on the bed. I leaned back onto the head board so that he was laying on my chest on an angle. I did that so I can observe his actions. And to nobody's surprise, he knawed on the toy for a while. He gets so focused on things, just like his father.

He did eventually let go of the toy so that it rolled onto the bed. I raised an eyebrow at him and he opened his mouth wide. I nodded and slid my shirt down so that I could breastfeed him.

Once I adjusted him and he latched onto my nipple, I closed my eyes and leaned my head back.

The activity used to be a bit painful but now truthfully, it's second nature for me. It still felt like a tingle but nothing more.

And a little while later he was done. I burped him and then set him down on the bed. I then layed down next to him and played with him until his diaper needed to be changed. At that point, it was time to give him a bath. I wasn't in a rush so I let him play with his bath toys for awhile before I actually cleaned him. Afterwards, I dryed him off, put some baby safe lotion on him, and dressed him up. I also made a makeshift pillow fort on the bed for him so that I could take a shower myself. I asked him to stay put, and even though I got no response, I knew he knew what I meant.

To avoid any issues though, I made my shower quick and decided to dry off once I got back into the room. I guess he got tired of waiting for me, because he was fast asleep. I gushed at his adorableness as I got ready. As soon as I was done, I called up Martin and asked him to pick us up again. He told me he would be there soon before hanging up.

I then gathered everything In-su might need into his diaper bag. I went and placed it by the front door. I then went back to the room and gently picked up my son. I carried him, carefully, to the living room where I had left his carseat. And again, carefully, I buckled him in. I gathered my purse and put on my shoes, just in time for Martin to let me know he was here. I replied to his text, grabbed the diaper bag and my son, and left the suite.

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