SEOKJIN POV
We were walking and laughing together while talking about auditioning to BigHit when we heard a loud sound and someone saying “Motherfu-” from the back.
We turned around and saw Y/n looking shocked too. She was pouting like a kid who was caught in the act. Cute. Wait what?
“-ther.” she finished the word as she answered the phone and walked ahead of us. Her ringtone is freaking loud!
When she walked ahead of us, my friend asked me “Isn't she your friend?”
“Was. Let's not talk about her.” I shrugged.
They didn't say a word so we continue walking.
Get out of my life, Min Y/n.
[FEW DAYS LATER]
“Hmm.... I guess I should think of names!” I said talking to myself while laying down and waiting for my mom.
“If you're a girl, I think Jisoo would be great! She's my best friend! Or Jennie? Nooo she's our school bully... Ohhh what about the girl version of the BTS Members' names?” I'm like a mad woman now.
“Sejin, Yoonji, Seokhee, Namsoon, Jimin, Taehee, Taeri, Junghee? Hmmm... Jimin is great for girls and boys but I don't want to name you Jimin. Ohhhh I'll just name you similar to your appa's name... Sejin. Yes, it's great!” I finalized the name.
“And if you're a boy, I may love you but I won't name you after a BTS member... Not even your appa.” I laughed to my self. “Let's see... Why can't I think of something?”
“Aishh jagi, please be a girl... I can't think of any names.” I chuckled to myself.
Just then, someone knocked on the door. It must be mom. I opened the door and there she was, smiling widely at me. “Y/nieeeeee!!!” she hugged me tight. Now I'm feeling so guilty... As sin.
“Eomma, I've prepared our dinner. Let's eat.” I led her to the dining area and we sat there. “Awww this looks delicious! Thank you jagi...” she said and we ate.
“E-Eomma...” I said barely a whisper so she asked me worriedly. “What happened, Y/niee? Are you okay?”
“N-None of t-this is o-okay, eomma.” I said and shook my head as she saw how my tears ricochet. “Then tell me what happened, so that I can help you.” she held my hand.
I slowly shot my head and said “I-I... I-I'm f-four weeks p-pregnant, mom.” I am now shaking. Mom's expression were hard to read.
She let go of my hand and remained silent. She put her hands on her mouth, shocked as tears fell out of her cheeks. “W-What?” I lowered my head as I feel more guilty.
“W-Why? I... I...” she can't form a even a syllable as she continued crying. “M-Mom...” I tried to hold her hand but she pulled it away. “N-No! How can this be, you're fifteen!”
Right. I am. And I always thought I'm matured enough.
“I've always told you to not be like me, right?” she said crying. Yes, she's a teen mom. She had me at me at seventeen, and my bastard dad? Him and his family left without a trace.
Her family pushed her away because they said she's a bad influence to her younger cousins. And that's why mom doesn't like me getting pregnant and the father ends up running away.
And if that happens, she'll help me unlike what her family did. Because I'm her daughter.
“I'm sorry, mom. I'm so sorry.” I kneeled in front of her. I was crying so hard from the guilt, and also thinking about the relationship between me and Jin oppa. I mean, how will we talk?
Mom also kneeled in front of me and held my shoulders firmly. “Who's the father, Y/n?” she asked looking at me. “J-Jin o-oppa...” I sobbed harder. What if mom confronts him about it? He still doesn't know, and I'm actually the one who should tell him that.
“P-Please don't confront him, mom. He doesn't know, I'm still trying to find the right time...” I said shakily. “Now's the right time, Y/n!” she shook me harder.
“I know but please, I'll tell him soon.” I looked at her crying. “I'm sorry, I'm so sorry mom. I-I...” I stopped when she hugged me so I hugged her back. I'm so sorry for my stupidity, Mom.
That night, we fell asleep hugging each other. I keep saying sorry while she just kept shushing me while caressing my hair.
When I woke up, I saw her preparing to leave. Isn't her day-off today? “I thought you didn't have work today, mom?” I asked while rubbing my eyes.
“It is, but I want to spoil my grandchild. I'm like the youngest grandma here. So I need to work overtime.” she smiled at me. But her eyes tell me that she's hurt. So hurt.
“But I have a work, mom. You don't need to do that.” I said so she replied “But I want to. And I told you I'll help you, didn't I?” and caressed my belly gently. “I'm so excited to see you...” she smiled and turned to me.
“I'll see you again soon, jagi.” she kissed my forehead and left. After she left, a sob escaped mouth. I'm so guilty for my mom.
Author's POV
When her mother was outside, a tear fell down her cheeks. She was thinking about the bad but good news.
Bad because Y/n's pregnant at a young age, Good because there's a new life coming soon. But she was thinking why did this happen.
Does she lack time with her daughter that she ends up finding someone else's attention? Or... Was she just a bad mom who is so delusional? She can't think straight as she was walking like a lifeless person on the little town street.
Suddenly, someone hugged her back. It was Y/n. She was crying so hard that her clothes were already wet. “M-Mom... I'm so sorry. Please d-don't blame yourself. You're anything but a bad mom. And I thank you for that. I-I love you, Mom.”
At that point, she couldn't hold her tears anymore. She turned around and also hugged her daughter. Y/n is crying as she kept mumbling 'sorry' to her mom. “Shhh... It's okay.” she said patting me gently.
“Now, can you promise me something?” Y/n turned to her. “What is it, eomma?” she asked innocently. “Can you promise me that you'll take care of my grandchild as well as yourself when he or she's still inside you?” I smiled. “I'll promise to my mom, Jeon Soyeon, to take good care of my child like she took care of me. And even better.” I said and hugged her again.
“Jagi, I'll be late for my work now. I left the money at the table, you better save money for my grandchild....” she said so I nodded and chuckled. “Okay, mom. I love you.” we broke the hug. “And I love you too. Go home now.” she said, waved at me and rode the bus.
When the bus left, I cried again walking home when Jin oppa and I crossed paths again. He was walking his dark jeans and his white Nikes. When he saw me, I lowered my head as he walked forward towards my direction earlier. “Pathetic.” I heard him whisper.
I looked at myself and realized that I looked like a mess. In pajamas, hair's messy, puffed face and red eyes. I hurriedly went home and fixed myself. And then I promised something.
“I need to take care of myself. From now on, I'll do everything that can make me happy and avoid depression. And as for Jin oppa, I'll tell him when he's ready to talk. For now, I need to do the best thing to keep me mentally and physically healthy. Min Y/n, fighting!”
Unedited (Oct. 3, 2024)
It's been a while... It's our exam week awhile ago and I have so many pending works☹️ and WHOA, we've reached 30 chapters now!🙀Well, happy reading!
~Ms. Kim💜
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