Catching Dreams, Chasing You

CHAPTER 19

"Good morning is finally a really good morning." I smiled as I opened my windows. The weather was quite nice, it's not sunny or rainy. Perfectly fine.

I knew this would be a really good day.

When I looked at the time, "Oh, It's already time for lunch. Good for-lunch?" I sighed realising that I overslept again.

I hurriedly ran into my balcony to check the dreamcatchers again. It's beautiful, meaningful, unforgettable. If there will be a storm, I will first save this two-

What the?

My brows furrowed, "Didn't we hang the two dreamcatchers? Why is this only his?" I talked to myself.

I looked around the balcony, I also peaked below thinking that maybe it was dropped by a strong wind last night but I didn't see any.

I get back to my room to get my phone to call Seb who's probably at Safe Place Cafe now. I wasn't able to move because of Seb's message. My brain stopped, my heart felt an unexplainable pain I never imagined I could feel. My heart never aches this way. It's like someone is stabbing me inside.

"Good morning. While reading this, you're probably mad at me and questioning me to the point that you want to hit me until I bleed. Aster, I like you. I will always do. You inspired me, you changed my perspective, you took me out from hell. You bring light to my darkest nights. I love how you smile. I love how optimistic you are. I love your logic. I love how clumsy you are. I love everything about you, the good and bad. I am not good at expressing myself, you're aware of that. I planned on telling this while holding your hands but I just can't."

"Let me repeat what I said. Aster, I will promise to chase my dreams so I can have the rights to chase you, my dream girl. You also promised to not forget about me so it's a deal, don't break it. Please... wait for me. No matter how long it takes because in this lifetime, you're the only one I will love. I know it's silly that I'm confessing but saying goodbye at the same time."

"I will watch your movies, your shows, and your interviews in the future. You may not have witnessed it but keep in mind that I'm here to always support you. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to get to know you. Knowing you is the best thing that ever happened to me after those dilemmas. Asteria Vega Suarez, I love you."

"I took your dreamcatcher with me. Let's meet after 5 years, in the coffee shop. On exactly the day I confessed, I'll give it back to you. Remember that. Good bye for now. I love you."

With tears dropping from my eyes, I ran towards his apartment but it's too late. He's no longer there. I'm calling him but he's not answering- I can't reach him.

I put my jackets on and without hesitation- I took my keys and drove faster to the coffee shop. I need to see him.

"Sir Wen..." I am catching my breath and wiping my face.

"Oh. What happened? What's wrong? Did you cry?" He asked worriedly but all I am thinking of is him.

"Where's Seb?"

"He just resigned. You didn't know? He left... almost 2 hours ago. I'm actually about to call you because I need your help. He resigned out of sudden, he shocked m-" He stopped talking and immediately walked in my direction.

I am crying hard.

Sir Wen hugged me, "Shhhh... I don't know what happened between you two but...." I looked up to face him even though I knew that I looked like a complete mess.

"He told me to do well in business so that this coffee shop will still be here after 5 years." He said that made me shed more tears.

I lived my life feeling lost but I found myself when I'm with him.

He said that I bring light in his darkest nights but my anemia was getting better because of him.

He said I take him out of hell but he was an angel guiding me everyday.

He said I inspired him but he's actually my motivation to keep going.

He helps me when I'm not even asking for help.

He loves me at my best and worst.

The day I saw him in the cafe wearing his brown apron- I was already fascinated by his handsome face and the way he acted. I think it's interesting how cold he is so I insisted on being friends with him.

I know he was full of misery that I hate but I'm willing to be forever unaware of some things if it's him who's hiding it.

Those sleepless nights in the cafe. The cold breeze of wind on the way home. The ice cream and his coffee on our balcony. The dishes that he cooks. The breakfasts that he gave. The necklace. The dreamcatcher.

All of that was my source of inspiration.

The way he smiles at me makes me smile more. The idea of him liking me was the most beautiful idea I've ever known.

I never knew I'd fall for him. I always deny that I feel something for him from the very beginning. If only I was true about my feelings- this probably doesn't happen.

After calming myself, Sir Wen received a phone call and when he got back to me- he asked me to go home and not bother going to work later.

I haven't resigned, he doesn't have any employees.

"You're fired. It's not me, it's Mr. Jacob. He had 51% shares, I want to argue with him but he said you'll be filming a movie under his production. Aster, stop crying for Sebastien. If you are for each other, even if you turned the world upside down- you'll eventually fall into each other's arms." He said, trying to comfort me.

His smile was genuine. "Remember what I said when Ella resigned? I don't mind losing a nice employee as well as a pretty loyal customer, for dreams only. You're finally going to chase yours. I won't see you scrolling up and down anymore- trying to get information about a course. I won't witness you spinning the wheel with majors written on it. I am happy to let you go." I couldn't help but hug him tight.

"Sir Wen... I will be back. If I become famous, I will endorse Safe Place Cafe for free. I promise!"

Walking out of the coffee shop, moments of me sitting in that specific chair with my laptop and coffee for several hours flashes back- that version of me never imagined that I would leave to do something I never saw on that laptop.

My eyes were still swollen. In front of the cafe, I saw Ms. Audrey standing nice and looking directly in my eyes.

"What's wrong?" She eventually asked, concerned about me.

"He confessed but then he left, saying that I must wait for him."

"Jacob was sitting in the passenger seat. I insisted on driving." My brows furrowed by what she said. My facial expression shows that I don't understand her sudden information.

She was smiling while looking at the black BMW parked in front, "It took me 10 years to meet my first love again, only to quarrel about who will drive here today. That's my car, I won the argument."

"It took me 10 lonely years before I met him again. I was only 16 when we met and 17 when he left. After all these years, he's now back but he isn't aware that I still like him. He's chasing me and I'm chasing him away even if I badly want to accept his love."

"Why? You love him, so why?"

"It took him 10 years before finding me. Meaning, I was alone for 10 years. I have been avoiding him for less than a month, he can endure that if he truly loves me- I endured the 10 years chasing every guy away," I let out a laugh because of her expression.

"Alright, I'm not here to talk about my love life. Destiny always fools around but you should trust that- two people that are bound to be together will always be together even if the world splits into half. Cheer up."

They said the same thing.

It's my first time liking someone, my first time getting hurt. I told him that "career first" so I should prioritise it.

Wishing to all the stars, guide him when I'm away. Hug him when he's cold. Shine from him when he's sad.

We're miles away but we will always be looking at the same sky.