One shots || Jake and Johnnie

Old secrests || Jake and Johnnie

Jake and Johnnie is gonna film a waterpark video, Jake figured he had to tell Johnnie his biggest secret.

(TW: Old sh scars, anxiety)
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No ones P.O.V

Jake and Johnnie was sitting in the kitchen eating breakfast, they were eating some left over pizza since they were both hungover from the party they trew last night. Suddenly Jake felt Johnnies eyes on him, he looked up at the older man to see what he wanted.

"So i was thinking, we should go to that new waterpark and film a video when we try diffrent slides" Johnnie said, waiting for Jake's respond.

Jake felt anxiety creeping up on him, he really wanted to do it. He just didn't feel like showing of his body on camera in just swimming shorts. "Yeah sure, when do you wanna go?" Jake said, he didn't wanna make Johnnie disepointed. He was trying to act as normal as posseble.

"I was thinking tomorow morning sometime, pretty early so it isn't to many people there" Johnnie said as he picked his phone up, probebly to text there camera man to see if he was available tomorow.

Jake stood up and went over to the sink, putting down his plate. He told Johnnie that he needed to take a shower. Johnnie noded as Jake took of to his room and went into his bathroom. Locking the door behind him.

He took all his clothes off, and just stood there, looking at himself in his full body mirror. He watched the deep white lines on his upper thighs and felt even more anxiety then before, he had never told Johnnie about them.

They were old, probebly over 7 years old, but he could still see them clear as day. He knew he had to tell Johnnie if they were gonna film that video tomorow, he just wasn't sure how to, and after all this time.

He went into the shower to wash his body, he thought about how Johnnie would react to the news. He knew that Johnnie have had his own struggels with self-harm, The difference was that Johnnie had always been open about it to Jake.

Jake just wanted to forget about his past, he didn't want the memories of it to ruin him again.

Jake didn't know what to do, he think it would be better to just rip the bandage and tell him. Don't think to much about it.

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Jake laid on his bed inside of his room, it was around 8pm now, he knew that he had to tell Johnnie soon before he went to sleep. He took up his phone and wrote Johnnie a text.

Johnnie was on twitch streaming, reacting to some random youtube video one of his followers had sent him. He suddenly heard his phone vibrate, he took his eyes away from the computer screen to see who had texted him. He saw he had an notification from Jake, he opend the text.

"Hey, can you talk?" He looked at it and wonderd what Jake wanted to talk about, he turned back to the screen and said he had to go. Turning of the stream and started heading twords Jakes room.

He didn't bother to knock so he just went inside. Jake just sat on the edge of his bed, bouncing his legs nervously. Looking at Johnnie.

Johnnie went over to Jake, taking a seat down beside him. "What's wrong Jake? You seem really anxious"

Jake hesitated for a moment before he startet speaking with shaky words. "I need to tell you something..."

Johnnie could tell how nervouse Jake was about telling him, whatever he needed to tell him. "It's okay, you can tell me anything" Johnnie said as he felt anxiety grow inside of him. He was worried about what jake would tell him.

"I have these scares, on my legs" Jake took a short pause, trying to keep himself togheter as he felt the tearse in his eyes. "They're from a dark time in my life. I was struggling with so much pain and couldn't find a way out."

Johnnie looked at Jake with a mix of shock and compassion. He didn't know what to think, why had he never knew that his bestfriend has fought this all on his own? He knew that feeling, the feeling of needing to hurt yourself to feel better, he knew it all to well.

"I had no idea, Jake. I'm so sorry you went through that alone." I said while looking into his eyes, not breaking eye contact.

Jake couldn't hold it back anymore. Hot tears started welleing up inside of Jake's eyes as he finally shared his past with Johnnie.

"Why did you tell me" Johnnie carfully asked him.

"Becuse we're suppost to go to that water park tomorow so i wanted to tell you now, so you didn't have to found out yourself" Jake said as he blinked back the tears, He didn't wanna cry infront of Johnnie. Johnnie stood up from the bed and gesturd Jake to do the same. As soon as Jake stood up Johnnie pulled him into a hug. Letting Jake take out all his sadness inside of his arms.

"Im so proud of you Jake"

Should i make a part 2 when they are at the waterpark?