Beautiful Beings

With A Mind Of It's Own

I hear it beat within my chest
That feckless heart of mine
Once again, yet again
Despite the cautioning
Of my mind
It  beats to the sound of
His voice
To the letters of his words it
Echoes
As always as forever,
They mean nothing, my mind
Argues
Just breadcrumbs
A rope to keep you hanging on,
Regardless it beats
With a mind of it's own.

I write it down in a thousand
Words,
Reasons not to return
To this endless carousel
That leads nowhere but eternity
Unending confusion keeping me dizzy,
I memorize them
Reciting each word to the letter
To steady my heart
To teach it better
Not to go back
Yet it goes where it is not wanted
Despite my reasoning
With a mind of it's own

When it's broken and trampled Upon,
This I guarantee will always be
The case,
It returns crying to my embrace
Alone in confusion
Vowing never again,
But I heard this song before
I grow weary of it
I am sick to my stomach
With its tune,
I hope to bury that reckless
Heart of mine till it stops
Beating
How troublesome
But there it goes again
Beating back to the sound of
His voice
Echoing the letters of his words
Empty promises, promises
Despite my efforts,
Why  do I bother
It will always return to him
With a mind of it's own,
No, it belongs to him.