It's Always You ~Loscar~

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TW
Mention of suicide
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(Oscar's POV)

Things didn't change. He never responded to his radio calls, so eventually the race was red flagged as the marshals pulled him out the car by the shoulder straps of his race suit. So here I was, sitting in a hospital room, watching said person lay unconscious while hooked up to a buch of machinery.

Lucky, this hospital had 24 hour visiting, so I could stay as long as I wanted to. And oh how I took advantage of that. As soon as I was able to leave the track on Sunday, I came here, and it's now Monday night.

I had seen the reply's of the crash. If you didn't have the experience of an f1 driver it would look as if Alonso taped Logan rear wheel into turn one. But as someone who's driven through that turn so many times, physically and on the sim, I knew it wasn't Alonso fault.

Logan turned into the barriers himself.

I had os many questions for him, and due to the severity of Logan's wounds, I don't think I'll be able to ask him soon, of at all... Had what Alex said to him in his drivers room before the race really gotten to him that much that for decided to kill himself?

I mean, as much as I would hate to admit it, it would make sense. The cuts on his arms and the stuff Alex was yelling at him for, I can see why he thought to do it, I wouldn't have been able to handle if either of I'm being completely, but it's not nice know how easy it could happen. Especially when you put your life in the line like that every weekend.

So with Logan still asleep, or more likely and a lot sader, in a coma, I keep out of the room to go home and have a shower for the first time since the race. In my way out I passed Danny and Max, telling me they were her to see Logan. While I knew that they aren't close with him, they were still the people who talked to him the most on the paddock, besides me.

Sat in my car, I looked through off of the missed notifications. Mostly from Lando and Zak asking where I was. Since Mcalren scored a 1-2 in the race, they thought it would be a good idea to go out and celebrate. I, in my good mind, could not do that. So as soon as I could, and without telling anyone, came here.

As much as I hated not telling them, there was something in the back of my mind saying to not tell them anything. I'm not sure why, but my instincts have never lead me astray, so why ignore them now? Especially with Logan in such a delicate condition and situation. If the media somehow got a hold of this all hell would break loose.

"Logan, if only you knew how much I cared about you," I say to no one except myself and the things in my car

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So.., filler chapter! To be honest, I don't really know where I'm going with this book, so there will be A LOT of filler chapters.

Anyways, enjoy my lovelies!
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