Feelings Lie ( I Don't Feel Anything)

the first session

"What I have said is already said no going back Zack is Lydia's new tutor until exams or until further notice. no one will change that, final" Mr Glen said with a smile

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Lydia placed her bag by the door and glanced at the kitchen window while she stood at the sitting room and she no memory came into her mind neither no emotion covered her soul, heart and brain she was just numb with no feelings or emotions, she then looked around her surroundings and she moved upstairs to her bedroom, she closed her door in silence she then sat on her bed and stared at her big window that showed her the sky with green trees and flowers that had various of colors. from the eyes of a person who was normal and not like Lydia they would compliment the view and say it was beautiful and it was pleasing to see it, but Lydia just glared at the glass of the window with no pleasing sense, she then took off her clothes and placed them in the washing basket, and she went into the shower, when she was finished she wore her pajamas and went downstairs and saw her mother chopping some carrots in in the kitchen, her mother was smiling down to the table not noticing Lydia coming downstairs.

year 2014

'' please doctor anything just anything to save my child I won't be able to live healthy knowing that she can't live nice, I would offer you millions, even if it means my life could be in danger in using my body on your experiments, do anything, please help her, make feel emotions, give her the life that she truly deserves, she knows nothing she's still young and she keep growing like this please a cure I'm begging you, anything, pills, drugs, medication anything to make my daughter feel emotions again'' Lydia's mother said while she sobbed and kneeled down in a doctor's office and Lydia watched from a distance feeling no emotion. 

Lydia got hit with another memory from the past when she was hardly 5 years old, '' Lydia'' her mother called out to her with a smile on her face, '' you're back I'm glad'' she said again her smile slowly fading away from her face seeing Lydia's serious face all of a sudden, then she looked down to the table seeing her daughter wont reply to her words '' I'm making dinner, you do your homework or chill at the lounge or do anything that seems to interest you, Tane ant Nate will be back soon so-'' '' could you close your mouth or decrease the amount of words to you take out, its irritating'' Lydia said stopping her mother from saying anything more, her mother looked deeply hurted by Lydia's words, and remained silent and avoid eye contact with Lydia as she went by the door and fetched her bag and went back upstairs but stooped in the middle of the stairs, ''I'm not hungry don't invite me for dinner'' Lydia said coldly and went to her room. 

Lydia pulled her blanket and slept covering her whole body with the blanket.

'' no way I'm not getting in there if she didn't want any dinner then she shouldn't any food, you can give it to her instead no me'' Tane said by Lydia's room making Lydia wake up, ''Tane she has not eaten for two days it cannot keep going like this, just get in and place the food on her table'' his mother said, ''then she is slimming how is this supposed to be any of my business let her become what she wants to become it is not our fault that she was born with a disease that has no cure, weather she asked for this sickness or not I do not care, her self being makes me wish that-'' ''I will, eat give me the food'' Lydia said opening the door and seeing Tane, Nate and her mother standing Infront of her door, her mother passed the plate into Lydia's hands, and Lydia, silently looked at her plate then at them all.