Feelings Lie ( I Don't Feel Anything)

~hi, nice to meet you~

Lydia turned her head to find another boy standing infront of her, he was facing the back, then he looked down to the desk, to see Lydia, he gently smilled seeing her and in dark toned voice he said "Hi I'm Zack nice to meet you"

He had curly hair which laid nicely on his forehead, he had fine skin, his hair was nicely dark black and his perfect pink lips were perfect with his smile,

Lydia then again looked up at him without a word to say to him, he reached out for his hand "Hi, nice to meet you" he said waiting for Lydia to shake his hand, but Lydia did what she did previously, just starring at the hand.

"I don't shake hands" she codly said starring at his hand,

His smile slowly faded from his face, "What's your name then?" He asks instead, "can I help you with anything?" She asks back at him, zack looks at her with a settled confusion on his face,

"In that case, may I borrow one of your pencils?" He asks nicely his smile coming back from his face, "No" she tells him straight away and raised her head to face his face,

"No?" He jokingly asks, "that's what I said" Lydia tells him, zack immediately stops smiling and puts away his hand, "Please, it will only take few minutes" he tells her,

"I thought I made myself clear enough" Lydia says while looking down, 

Zack then went back to his seat and the class went on like nothing just happened,  Lydia didn't put her focus on anyone,  or anything,

She was just there to listen and write like all the other students,  but that's what she thought.

The school bell rang for afterschool and everyone gathered their belongings, and bags and went outside, Lydia slowly moved outside of the classroom, and as she went out of the class,

A girl with blonde hair caught her by the door and with a cute smile she greeted her with a wide, and innocent smile, Lydia stared at this girl with the smile on her face totally confused of the sudden smile on her face,

Lydia started to leave, then the girl stopped her,  "sorry, but hi." The girl said, and Lydia stopped and turned around to face the girl who was still smiling,

There was a moment of silence between them, and Lydia was staring at the girl's face waiting for her to somehow speak, the girl might have noticed this then spoke in a gentle voice,

"I'm Bella, what's your name?" She asked Lydia who simply responded "Lydia" then she turned to leave again but Bella stopped her again,  "um, Lydia? Excuse me for a minute, " Bella said, "speak" Lydia said to her, not facing her direction,

"Well nice to meet you Lydia," Bella said and Lydia turned around to see the third hand that day, trying to touch hers, the third hand she didn't want to touch,

Bella waited patiently for Lydia to shake hands with her, "I don't shake hands" Lydia said, "ohh," Bella managed to say with a sad look, "why?" She asked her,

"Touching humans skin disgust me" Lydia told her, "Wait humans?" Bella asked, "you're human too right?" She asked again, but Lydia ignored her and went outside the school building, totally ignoring all chaos around,

Lydia stared at the quiet road by her school and she moved towards it, feeling the breeze, making her hair gently blow away, she stood by the road and a car drove pass through the road, by the side she was standing,

She hears a familiar voice from behind "um hey you're the new girl right?" He asked. From behind, Lydia didn't bother looking behind her, she just stopped and waited for the voice to speak,

And slowly the footsteps following her showed down and remained costant. "Sorry for being a a nuisance I just..." "You only notice that now?" Lydia asked still not turning to look at the boy, then after a long moment of silence,

She started to walk away by foot,  she did not take the bus, she didn't want to- she arrived home after an hour to find her mother and brothers sitting on the sofa laughing and enjoying themselves they were watching the big screen telvevision on the wall their mother just bought.

They didn't even notice her presence they gasped and laughed and smiled, even when this was a common thing or film for Lydia to watch but she didn't understand anything they were doing and why they were doing it,

She slowly moved to her bedroom and to her desk and placed her bag, and putted some earpods on her ears and listened to some songs to make her fall asleep one of it was -pastlives by BØRNS- its not about the lyrics in the song, it's about the slow motion in the song.

Lydia practically dosent listen to songs to enjoy them she just listen to them to be able to sleep. She slowly laid down her head on the desk's surface and carefully closed her eyes feeling the breeze coming from her window to gently hit her face,

"Lydia when did you come back?" A voice woke her while a hand gently touched her shoulder. "I came back the time I came back" Lydia said while waking up and raised her head.

Lydia has slept for three hours but still look like she never slept at all no wrenkles or baggy eyes her eyes weren't swollen and he skin looked fresh and clear, Lydia had dark eyes which made her dark hair match perfect with her whole face, she looked up to see Nate.

And looked at the door, "you didnt bother knocking?" Lydia asks Nate. "The door was open so I just came in to you wake up and tell you its dinner time since you never went downstairs" Lydia nooded and placed her right hand on her cheek.

And Nate turned to leave, but stopped by the door and said "I know you can't love us as family but, mom would be really happy to see you at least come down, for her sake?" Nate said then slowly closed the door behind him.

Lydia just stared at the door trying to understand Nate's words but none got into her head.

Tomorrow morning Lydia got up earlier and went down to find her mother in the kitchen like the always. "Morning" Lydia said taking a bowl and putting cereal in it.

"You're up early today" her mother said "yes I am" Lydia said pulling a chair to sit down and started eating her cereal. "How was school?" Her mother asked again. "The answer I would usually say when you ask that question." She replied back to her mother.

"School was being school" her mother mumbled to herself, "yes, exactly" Lydia said showing that she heard her mother's muble. "I'm leaving" Lydia said again then took her bag and headed for the door leaving her mother in the kitchen.

Lydia slowly moved by the road. Then she heard a car pulling over next to her but she didn't seem to care what else is happening around her. But hearing footsteps coming next to her caught her attention, when she turned to see who the footsteps belonged to,  she saw someone standing next to her.

A tall boy with curly dark hair that covered his forehead- "hello?" Lydia asked then the boy turned to look at her direction she then remembered the photo on the wall of the school, she saw yesterday at the hall. The photo she stared, with a boy with orange hair wearing uniform. And this was him that boy but no orange hair no uniform rather in a blue and white tracksuit and a jacket matching with the tracksuit they stared at each others eyes for a moment, not moving a single inch but just staring at each other's eyes.

"Are you stalking me ?" Lydia finally asked.Wattpad