High School Musical (Sokeefe human au)

-17-

Keefe's pov

I panicked.
Like literally panicked.
What if Foster's really dead?
I can't lose her!!

I dashed out of the door, bumping into several nurses on my way and ran straight into an office that hopefully Dr.Elwin is in.
Thankfully, he is.

"Keefe! Are you and your friends done visiting Sophie?" Elwin said, drinking his coffee.
I couldn't answer, so I dragged him out of his office, almost spilling his coffee on the paperworks.
Elwin tries to ask me what is happening but I couldn't answer, so instead I dragged him into Sophie's room and now he sees the problem.
Elwin said.. well, a lot of colorful words when he realized that the heart monitor is now zero.
He called in a bunch of people and they went to work, I just sat there trying my best not to cry and blame myself. Alden always said that guilt is bad for us, something about it shattering our minds and stuff like that.
But I can't help but blame myself for everything that's happened...

Foster's HERE because I couldn't save her from getting hit in the head by the giant black thingy.
Foster's heart monitor worked amazingly well for 15 seconds but I just stood there doing nothing like an idiot.
I could've saved her if I'm not this dumb!

Maybe what my parents said was right.
Maybe I AM a disappointment.
Maybe I'm NOT supposed to be alive.
Maybe the gods just hate me and want to make my life miserable.
Maybe I'm not worth ANYTHING.
Maybe my friends will be better off without me.
Maybe I should just go and jump off this building.

I stood up abruptly, knocking the chair that I was sitting on over. I walked out of the room, I can't feel anything anymore. Is this what people call 'numb' when your emotions are overwhelmed? A nurse looked concerned about me and tried to talk to me about it but I'm scared that if I talk I would only make matters worse.

I quietly went up the stairs that lead to the rooftop, I sat on the ledge, feet dangling over the city of California. I glanced down and I can see a lot of normal things that happened in our neighborhood.
A house is throwing a princess themed birthday party for a 8 year old little girl and lots of people are invited
2 families of 4 went to the park to star-gaze and eat dinner together
A little girl and a little boy played on the slides together
A family of 3 laughing and hugging each other

I sighed, I wished my family was like theirs. I stood up and looked down, cars and buses coming and going as they used to. I looked upwards to the sky, the stars shimmered as the moon cast a warm glow onto the earth.

I took a deep breath and remembered all the nice things that had happened to me.
Becoming best friends with Fitz.
Numerous times of going to the Vackers' house for sleepovers.
Foster helping me get over my family issues.
Foster singing for the first time.
Our whole friend group doing the show together.
My first kiss.

I looked behind me, a group of teenagers were having barbeque on the rooftop and waved at me, smiling.

Am I really going to leave this world?

Think of all the bad things that happened to you!

My parents calling me useless, a waste of time.
Teachers calling me stupid.
Being lectured by the principal for the millionth time because I skipped class.
Getting hit by my parents.

But also the things that are wonderful.

My friends.
The Vackers.
Foster - my girlfriend.

Memories flooded my brain, tears streamed down my face.

I took my last breath and jumped.

Hey!! Sry abt the cliffhanger-again! (I prob can't update until next next week cuz I have camp next week... 😆
Pls don't unfollow me, this is just a phase of the story and I SWEAR I'm not that cruel..........
Pls don't kill me, pls vote and comment!!
Have a nice day and keep reading!!

-Emma