White Tulips and Daisies

CHAPTER NINE

Build never left the spot. He curled himself into a ball, hugging his knees. Fat tears continue to fall from his eyes, never ending sobs choking him. He shouldn't have done that. He promised himself not to lash out. He wants to deal with this in the most subtle manner for the sake of Blue. But he didn't succeed. He confronted Wichapas about the past inside his own house where Blue could possibly hear everything.

And Build's thoughts are correct. As soon as the commotion died down, the door of their bedroom opened. Aunt Praya and Blue went out of the room, seeing Build breaking down. Blue is worried. He quickly ran to his father and hugged him from the back.

"Papa?" Blue tried to inquire to his father but the man continued crying. "Did you have a fight with Daddy?" 

Build cried more. One of the things he doesn't want Blue to experience is seeing and hearing his parents fight. He doesn't want Blue to experience a chaotic family, though their family is already one. Build inhaled before moving himself to face Blue. He saw Aunt Praya standing a few steps away from them.

"Papa and Daddy have a little misunderstanding but we are fine. Don't worry, okay?" Blue wiped his own tears.

"But Papa is crying and Daddy left without kissing Blue." The kid pouted and tears started to pool on his eyes, feeling a little hurt.

"Daddy is in a hurry. He told me to kiss you on his behalf, would that be okay?" Build tried to smile but the tears continued to fall.

Blue looked at his father, a little skeptical. Though he is hesitant, he nods. Build knows his son didn't buy his excuse but he kissed his lips, like they always do. He's glad Blue is a very smart kid.

"Have you eaten? Do you want some tea to calm you down?" Aunt Praya went near them.

After dinner and a hot cup of tea, Build can't find a way to sleep. He's standing by the window, trying to find peace. His mind is full of thoughts, more of anger and regrets. He could've been more calm. He could've confronted him outside the suite, where Blue is away. Blue definitely heard everything. The kid didn't ask anymore, like what he did after Build showed him a photo of Wichapas, but the kid will definitely remember. Build inhaled and looked at the sleeping child on the big mattress, hugging his carrot plushie. Blue just wanted a family. But given the situation, it will be too hard. As a father, all he wants is to make his son happy. Why is it so hard to make his aon's wish come true? 

Build almost jumped after hearing his phone rang. It was the middle of the night and this must not be about work. Maybe it's Sari. He walked to the bedside table and picked up the phone, only to see Prem's name on the caller ID. He frowned before answering.

"Khun, I am so sorry. I know it's midnight there right now but I don't have any other choices left." Prem sounds in a hurry. Build heard shuffling in the background. "Khun Wichapas had a road accident. He's in the hospital and no one is with him."

Build froze, chills ran down his spine. He looked at his sleeping son once again. A pang of guilt punched him and his heart was beating so fast.

"How is he?" The only words he can speak.

"The hospital staff called me and said he's still in the operating room. I'll take the earliest flight I can get. But…" Prem hesitates. He knows Build and Wichapas is still not on the best terms but what can he do? Wichapas has no one by his side and he's thousand miles away from him. Even if he gets the earliest flight, it will take a couple of hours before he gets there.

Build's mind stopped working. He wanted not to care. He's been in a life and death situation as well and he got no one. Wichapas will survive.

But Build found himself running from the entrance of the hospital. He quickly went to the reception and asked a nurse.