𝐃𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐡𝐨𝐰༒

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Montana Harris|January 8th|The hospital

My chest felt so tight the more I stared at Makiah's unresponsive body. This is the exact feeling I felt when tiny passed and it's making me trip out. I know people have been speaking to me cause I keep feeling hands on my body yet I can't hear them. It's as if they don't exist.

"Montana baby please.." sage begged lowly. I snapped back to my reality, looking down at her tear stained face which didn't make me feel any better. I hate when she cried.

"I-I" I stuttered trying to speak but ultimately gave up, I can't respond to her in this state.

She sniffled before pulling both of my arms and wrapping them around her, I put in the effort to rub her back to soothe her as best as I could.

I lifted her chin placing a small peck on her lips before laying my head on top of hers. I wish she could read my thoughts so she wouldn't be hurt. I love her. I love Makiah and I need her to be alive.

They said she was in critical condition since the bullet went through her spleen causing a chain reaction. She hasn't been responsive these last three days although she is still breathing. Everyone is hopeful yet I'm preparing for the worst, I'm not ready to lose another sister.

"Visiting hours are over" Nurse Jackie informed us before patting my shoulder. She's been a big help ever since Makiah was admitted.

"Cmon papa" Sage whispered while lightly grabbing my hand so we could leave out.

I sighed placing a firm kiss on her forehead. Sage, the most has been a big help. Between checking up on me and La'riah she's been amazing, this is exactly why I fell in love with her.
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January 10th|Montana's House|12:00pm

"are you sure this is something you want to do? I don't want you going to jail Montana" Sage pouted while we sat in our bedroom flipping through movies.

"No doubt" I nodded my head. I randomly sprung out the fact that I'm going to murder jace than quit the drug business.

I've been in this game since I was young, that was too long. I was supposed to get rich than quit, but I stayed in the game to focus on my family and friends. I wanted to provide for everyone but this is becoming too dangerous. Obviously we've all been shot at, shot people. Sometimes bullets would hit or graze us but it's never been to this extent. After a little research I seen that zen left a message on my computer that stayed at the warehouse about jaces whole plan. I'm always at home when I don't have to be at the warehouse so I never was able to see the message and it was eating me alive but Sage kept reminding me that it wasn't my fault at all. I don't know if I believe her.

I tend to hide the graphic parts about my childhood from her, I know I won't get caught. I thought I'd let her know in case I started moving differently. Murder isn't exactly something light to carry and I know that from experience.