Has ever happened to you that you have your life goals all set but suddenly everything changes and you're not longer sure of yourself?
Things that you use to love and you use to be good at, now it turns out you suck at them? You try hard to be like before but you just can't. It's so frustrating.
And then, out of nowhere you meet someone who has had your same life aims, but they are achieving them and you're not. You can't help but feel jealous, even though they deserve their dreams to come true as much as yours.
But you feel worthless and everyone is putting you under pressure and you just can't stand it anymore. You're upset. You're disappointed with yourself. You are mad because you can't go back, it just can't be like it was anymore. Things have changed.
You hate the moment you started doubting of yourself and your dreams because now, you realize it was what you really want, what you have ever really wanted.
But it seems so far to get there now. You fucked it up. You were just drove but an impulse at a certain point and now it's the thing you most regret. There's no going back.
You are scared. You are scared about what might happen next. Is it weird to feel that? Why is everyone acting like they're not scared of the future? Are they truly not?
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"Nuestras vidas son los fantasmas de la muerte".
