Views from the Heart

Re-1magining

Life in general isn't a easy ride. I've moved around a total of now 6 times in my life. I've been teased and pushed around. I've been alone for so long I became an introvert.

It's taken me so long to cope and heal...

For once in a long time, I mean a LONG time I actually feel like I have a home.

A while ago, I just assumed home was a place you could go and it is...but for most of my life something was missing. The more places we went the more I felt it.

So what was it?

A person.

Not just any person, someone who, well who actually knew me. Sounds ridiculous I know but...I felt as if nobody knew who I was, nobody cared...

For most people, High School is supposed to be this terrible awkward horrible no good very bad experience by what is stereotyped.

Not for me.

Granted, it isn't the greatest thing in the world but hear me out OK?

I met people who actually WANTED to know me! Crazy, right?! Me, the shy new girl with no confidence whatsoever, no phone, no social life, Nada, zip, zilch.

"Friends are our chosen family". Quote from Pinterest ha-ha.

Who knew the internet was so inspiring...

Anyway:

I met people who changed my life. I still have yet to meet more.

I found the love of my life (Seems stupid right now cause HELLOOOOO High School but eh we'll see if the pessimism or the optimism wins. ;3)

I found my best friend

I found love and family

What I didn't realize for so long was that love comes in so many different forms

Romance, sure but true love can be found in a friend too.

I'm an only child, so this was major for me.

I've grown a lot, have new glasses, watched more anime, etcetera. (How many people spell out etcetera? Do you? Most peeps just put etc.)

Me and him have grown closer.

We've talked about a lot

He's almost like the...what's the word...security in my life. It's like he's there for me through it all.

He's told me things I probably won't reiterate.

Ive told him some things that happened to me too.

No matter what we always end up surprising each other and helping each other. It's amazing!

My whole life I've never felt like this...

And my sister from another mister, oh, she's awesome. She cheers me up a lot and she's even keeping an eye on my man for me while I'm an hour away ha-ha.

I try my very best every day to try and help them the best I can.

Staying positive is a challenge, as we all probably know.

But I try.

And if I just can't anymore, well, then I cry along with them. (Eh my bff anyway.)

Why?

What happened? I went from not liking people to feeling like this?! Holy crap 0-0

Well life happened.

Yin and Yang dude! :D

So, no matter what goes your way, life lesson is you'll get through it no matter what.

(And no matter how bad you feel.)

I'm reimagining my life...

I have to...

Life is about change.

Like it or not I've been kinda forced to change.

But I never lose sight of who I am, who I want to be.

Why?

Well I'm still trying to figure that out.

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